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Kevin Lawrence

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"Being results oriented has many reasons, but one thing that will help at least to a degree is having the proper bankroll, so that you don't have to worry about money in poker."

it might look like a proper bankroll is what allows someone to not worry about money,
but this isn't true.

this view creates a fragile mental game.
instead: see that "money" is 100% an inner game.

it's never your bankroll (or lack there of) that's stressing you out.
it's your thinking about your bankroll (about money) that stresses you out or not.

it's possible to have a big bankroll and worry.
it's also possible to have any bankroll and not worry.

so, my advice for you Hawkeye10 is to look deeply into the nature of thought and free your mind.

this is possible.

and it changes everything.

look in this direction, with an open mind.

be patient.

April 13, 2023 | 8:31 p.m.

How has it been going for you since the post?

Sept. 12, 2018 | 2:47 a.m.

Thank you.

Sept. 11, 2018 | 1:46 a.m.

Friends who also have addictions, this distinction has been profound in helping me understand what's going on. . . .

Pleasure (dopamine) vs. Happiness (serotonin) -- his book is gold.

May 29, 2018 | 8:43 p.m.

May 29, 2018 | 12:39 p.m.

Meet Dr. Ted.

Dr. Ted is a mentor of mine and one of the most brilliant, crazy, and loving humans I've ever met.

So much fun and learning from this man.

Mathematics of Consciousness -Your Life as a Video Game. Dr. Ted Achacoso #495

Maybe I should start writing some about lessons I have learned from Dr. Ted? Hmmm...

May 29, 2018 | 12:37 p.m.

Meet Jeff. Jeff is my coach. I have been working with him the past 6 months or so. It's been nothing short of fucking amazing. Check out his work. I think you'll like it.

http://transcendexperience.net/

May 29, 2018 | 12:32 p.m.

I think video content is OK, but I've always found a more interactive format a better learning environment for me personally. I've got some ideas here, but for now, I would absolutely love to hear your ideas and topics that interest you. I'm also curious what you (and others) struggle with most?

May 28, 2018 | 7:17 p.m.

HELL YES and well said to everything you wrote SetMineUrAss and thank you for the love and support.

I hope you continue to find peace and happiness.

I have found that peace, and realize now it was never actually lost, it's always been inside me. The seeker is the search ;)

Ahh, that beautiful pit of despair. Looking back at it, I am infinitely grateful for that bottom pit, what a beautiful teacher it.

Be well. Much love.

May 28, 2018 | 6:59 p.m.

The quality of your life is determined by the quality of your relationships. Poker can be isolating. You do not have to do this alone.

If you want to feel better and perform better come hang with us on FB Live: Jamming with Kevin Tribes outperform individuals all day.

Yesterday, we launched: Jamming with Kevin, a live interactive show on Facebook Live. If you want to perform better and feel better come join us.

We will be riffing on all things: performance and wellness.

On the first episode, my good friend, business partner and producer of awesome Matt Thieleman, founder of https://goldenbristle.com/ joined me. It started a little slow, but then we dropped in. We specifically got loads of great feedback on the topic we discussed towards the end: Learning to Love Losing. When you love losing as much as winning YOU and YOUR LIFE will level up extremely quickly: you will feel better and perform better.

Next guest:

-My bestie, Austin Einhorn founder of Aprios. Austin is an absolute beast in the world of peak performance with a specialty in movement. Austin and I met 3 years ago at the magical Esalen for a week-long peak performance retreat put on by friends Steven Kotler and Jamie Wheal at Flow Genome Project. Austin is my people, you will love him. We both work with extraordinary individuals and organizations at the top of their game from pro athletes to pro poker players to executives. Words cannot describe the Quality of who this man is. Join us, get in the conversation, bring some questions and let's level up together. Tribes outperform individuals all day. If any of this resonates with you, we'd love you to be part of our tribe.

May 18, 2018 | 3:30 p.m.

Ego is NOT the enemy.

I love Ryan Holiday, but he's flat out wrong. If your story is something like: ego is the enemy, then YOU are creating an inner war with your ego. You will feel better and perform better when you love all parts of yourself.

ALL parts.

May 18, 2018 | 2:46 p.m.

For me is a hard work to put in practice.

If you think it's hard work to put into practice, then it will be.

May 17, 2018 | 6:04 p.m.

Bruno I love that quote!

And yeah man, the ego can be a tricky bastard. It's well worth the rewards though.

May 17, 2018 | 6:02 p.m.

If I had an opportunity to whisper a message into my younger self's ear I would say:

*Wake up. The way out is in. Fear is the doorway to flow. Follow your bliss. Feel first, don't think. Feel first, don't think. Wake up. Wake up. Wake up. . . . *

May 16, 2018 | 3:37 p.m.

The idea of a new blog, a refresh, has been percolating in my subconscious and conscious lately, but my intuition has led me to typing these words here, right now -- so I'll trust and roll with that. Let's see what comes up.

I am on two missions:

  1. the development of a meta-self, or awareness of that self, which is ego.
  2. being in service of Others, the Planet, the Universe -- in service of ALL

After playing poker professionally for 9+ years, I've transitioned into the next stage of my professional life. That being said, I love Poker. I appreciate Poker. I love the Poker community. What a beautiful teacher Poker is. I also know how dark and challenging it can be. It's been a long journey for me to get where I am today. I see, feel, and know there is so much opportunity and potential in the Poker community. I plan on doing something about that.

I plan on sharing things that are bubbling up in myself. It will likely be what I am currently experiencing and learning. Which means I will be exploring things on the edge of my current understanding.

Everything I say may be all wrong and if so it's all right.

“Adapt what is useful, reject what is useless, and add what is specifically your own.” -- Bruce Lee

May 16, 2018 | 3:32 p.m.

Some reflections and thoughts:

-weed affects everyone differently.

-weed can help trigger a flow state because of anandamide. Anandamide is a neurotransmitter that helps with making lateral connections between disparate things. Anandamide is one of the several feel good and performance enhancing neurotransmitters that shows up in flow. Weed gives you a boost of anandamide.

-it's also important to remember that weed, like coffee, social media, playing poker, ect. all produce dopamine. Too much dopa is NOT good for mental well-being and performance. Check out Robert Lustig's work on this. Specifically in the context of the weed discussion, he makes a great distinction between pleasure (dopamine) vs happiness (serotonin). This stuff is really important, imo. Let's just say, I'd bet a large portion of my bankroll that you (yes, literally you reading this now) are getting too much dopamine and it's likely having adverse effects on performance and well-being. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TG_jtVWXj5g

-There are many ways to get an edge in poker. The poker player thinks myopically, the Poker player knows and feels that's it's all connected. There are 4 games being played in Poker: intellectual, social, biological and energetic. A master is winning all of these.

When we talk about things like dopamine and serotonin we are talking about the biology game. Which is an area of the game most high performers lack mastery of. This means there is a huge opportunity to gain an edge here.

tldr:
1. weed may help you, and it may not
2. be mindful of your dopamine consumption (addiction)
3. win the biology game

May 13, 2018 | 4:03 p.m.

While theory is valuable, I'd start with play. I'd do my best to make it about fun, experimentation, exploring -- doing my best to keep the love of the game and learning alive.

I would like to place a keen sense of his motivation to learn and play. It is coming from fear/scarcity or love/abundance. The decision to play or not play is irrelevant to be. The motivation is paramount.

Most importantly, I'd do my best to hold a space of Full Non-Judgemental Being. What a gift that would be to give my son (or daughter!) at any early age!

Samu Patronen great question! And thanks to everyone else who shared their view. Fun and learning. I appreciate you all!

May 9, 2018 | 3:55 p.m.

I wouldn't try to explain it to him. I'd rather not allow my ego to corrupt his innate abilities with low quality social and intellectual patterns. Instead, I'd gently invite him to play. If he wanted to play all I'd ever do was play with him and guide him in figuring it out himself. He's the authority, not me. He'll learn much faster that way and have more fun.

"Learning is finding out what you already know. Doing is demonstrating that you know it. Teaching is reminding others that they know just as well as you."
- Illusions by Richard Bach

May 8, 2018 | 3:40 p.m.

Reminds me of a quote:

"In order to use your head, you've got to go out of your mind" - Timothy Leary

May 8, 2018 | 3:19 p.m.

Yes! Well said.

The mind has no power without the heart. If emotions are not engaged in what you do and what you want, you can't create anything. Divide and conquer is an old, low quality social pattern. Integration of mind and heart massively improves performance, and you feel better too.

May 8, 2018 | 3:18 p.m.

Perhaps create a website constructing those lessons.

My websites, if you are interested:

Kevin Cory Lawrence

11 Performance

May 2, 2018 | 2:57 p.m.

I sometimes tend to think that once you “make it” financially those feelings of depression go away, since I am in a financial downswing currently in my life, but the more I read about others who have indeed made it financially, still deal with problems of their own.

It's 100% an internal game.

You seem like you would be a good fit to apply for some type of industry title and if you’d like to give back to the poker community, that’s a way of being involved. You seem knowledgeable and experienced, so I think you would do well with something like that. I would be totally interested in content that is directed towards transitioning from poker to business. I think that would be excellent for players to indulge in that. Perhaps create a website constructing those lessons.

Thanks, man. I really appreciate the kind words, feedback and conversation.

It's been a long transition. When it actually started I don't know. It's been officially 8 months since I made the leap into business full-time -- I had been cultivating myself and my network for years. Lots of lessons, lots of learning.

Are there any particular things you (and anyone else who wants to join the conversation) are interesting in? Or struggling with? What specifically would you (and Others) like support with?

I am never sure how it'll unfold and that's the best part :)

May 2, 2018 | 2:49 p.m.

I get it man, I've been there.

May 2, 2018 | 2:29 p.m.

Here is something that has worked well for me...

I have this framed, hanging in my office: Cognitive Bias Codex

I do nothing more than look at this, regularly -- and without trying too, it's simply a Quality* piece of art living in my environment. I feed the input to my Unconscious, surrender and allow it to do the rest.

I am a visual and intuitive learner. This works well for my learning process. Will it work for you? I do not know.

April 13, 2018 | 1:08 a.m.

Nice job dude. That's great you have good things going on outside for poker, huge life EV points there!

Regarding your performance this month, what are 2-3 things that things that were brilliant?

April 1, 2018 | 1:08 p.m.

Kalupso Dude!!! YES! I love the visual. #visuallearner

Aurelius was kinda wise, huh? ;)

March 7, 2018 | 7:16 p.m.

Feb. 8, 2018 | 10:52 p.m.

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