During last months I found up myself pretty anxious and stressed. I am slowly getting to meditation, etc. But I still have some issues going on in my life.
I am constantly thinking about how I should spend my time with the ones I love instead of doing some other stuff, to a point where this becomes unhealthy and this is causing me a lot of stress. My biggest fear is to wake up one day, with my parents not here anymore, and to have the feeling, this deep regret that I could do so much more great things with them.
Basically, I am living in this fear every day. I am looking for a book, a method to get myself out of this, to accept more that I can't control everything in my life, and to let go my anxiety about the finiteness of life.