Aliap

Current Status
Bankroll: ~$890
Debt : (~3830)
Body Weight: 97 kg

JUNE UPDATE:

-So, i finish my duty and task on my monastery like beginning of the month. but I still got some meeting of evaluation and review the venue. so i still cannot play much regularly until maybe 20th June
-Pokerstars update make my connection to pokerstars bad. like I always disconected after 3 to 4 minutes, i need to , and login again. I lost some big pots, and tournament because of that
-I play some on Ipoker and from GG because of that
-but still good results on cash games table
-Got a winning tournament from GG $10.8 Omaha Bounty turbo,
-but after that I overconfident, I play alot of mid tournament and lose it too. but still happy about that winning
-I subscribe preflop on Omahapro , thanks for them, i got some discount for 6 months subscribtion for $221.82, I think this is good investment
-I wanna subscribe to PLO trainer too, they also offer me a good discount, but I still haven't got the money, and the time for study

Here is my highlight of June
2nd in Daily $20 turbo

1st in $10.8 Omaholic Turbo Bounty

Not so much Rakeback from pokerstars challenge, because of the connection issue. but still got some from leaderboard, and Ipoker rakeback

And this is my June cash games results

Really happy from June 2023 Results

May Update: sorry forgot to do the may updates, as i say before in may and beginning of june, i got some task or duty on my monastery, so i don't play poker much. don't study much. and not working out yet.

I play when I got time, and not tired. luckyly i got some heater on PLO50 and some tournaments

and this is my cash results

Pretty Happy about it , no complain at all.
also because it already 2 month, so i forgot some of the moments

This is my APRIL RESULTS

lose bunch of buy in while still learning 50bb in PLO25.
after that i got some idea how to play. and stop when tilting.
in the middle and last month , I run pretty good.
in the end i am minus some buy in, but plus after some RB.

last, my tournament big win, to bad i lose some to play casino games and play higher games.

overall not gonna complain, i think i should be grateful for my april results
I withdraw some of my bankroll to pay some of my debt, and for my live expense.

Bankroll Update: Stars ~$675, Ipoker ~$50, GG ~$185
Debt update : ~($4.650)
Body weight : 94kg (haven't got time to workout yet)

wish me luck guys

APRIL UPDATE: a lot happens to me last month.

positives:
-I come back to my grinding routine. I play more this month to finish the weekly rakeback challenge. raking $150 to get $60. so i play around 25.000 hands this month. and finish all 4 weeks challenge, to get a $240 rakeback.
-Pokerstars have other mini challenge and i could get some of the rakeback from that promotion (around $42)
-I got some nice score playing tournament when I play

Negatives:
-tilting, one day i chase my loses. i think i lost $200 from playing casino games on IP (but now i already block the games)
-still watching porn, when i watch it, i don't have mood to play anymore.
-still not study much after i subscribe the plo trainer

Grinding:
-Now i play PLO25 with 50bb strategy, so i got more buyin rather than buying in for 100bb.
-So it less likely to lose bigger than 100bb
-Playing PLO25 is really help me to get the target of $150rake(and get $60rb)
-Playing PLO10 for 100 buy in, just to get the pokerstars leaderboard promotion
-playing some NLH tournament, when the time is good, and my mood is good.

Studywise:
-I subscribe to omahapr0, i got a 1 month free for my first month
-I subscribe to 1 month of pl0trainer, because they have a 50% promotion for their 5 year anniversary.
-after the subscribtion, I thinking about bet sizing strategy. that usually works on different board. so now I have a strategy.
- haven't study and training much because i am really tired and lazy after i got home.
-Alsoo i got a couple of days of free trial of PLO vision, thanks to @Eldora on discord. so i could learn more about sizing in 50bb strategy on flop and turn. (hope I could subscribe it soon if my bankroll is growing)

Relationship:
- I am grateful that my family still healthy and in good condition .
-I think i kinda want to move on to my last girl, i don't know, still have a feeling for her, even tough she doesn't recognize me anymore.

Next Goal in may:
-have a task for my monastery organization. we got big event coming, and i am part of the organizer. so i will have many meetings, and
-can't grind like before. maybe play some tournament or regular table, but not finding volume
-my plotrainer subscribtion will expire this month, but I contact the plotrainer admin, and they say that maybe they could give me special price, but still a lot for PLO25 player like me. but i wanna subscribe it when i got the money in June or July.
-think i will get more serious to my game again after early June.

Wish me luck guys, please if you have any advice, please reply this massage,
Best Regards

Overal this week, playing so emotional,
play good first, but after a couple of bad beat, playing aggresive and bad.
gotta do better this week.

I got some big hands that i will post

Married to AAxx and flushdraw
PokerStars - $0.25 PL Hi FAST (6 max) - Omaha Hi - 6 players
Hand converted by Holdem Manager 3 : http://www.holdemmanager.com

BTN: $72.17 (288.7 bb)
SB: $25.00 (100 bb)
BB: $25.57 (102.3 bb)
UTG: $28.93 (115.7 bb)
MP: $116.51 (466 bb)
Hero (CO): $70.21 (280.8 bb)
SB posts $0.10, BB posts $0.25

Pre Flop: (pot: $0.35) Hero has Ad 2d 4c Ac
2 folds, Hero raises to $0.85, BTN calls $0.85, fold, BB raises to $3.50, Hero raises to $11.45, BTN calls $10.60, fold

Flop: ($26.50, 2 players) 6d Kd 9c
Hero checks, BTN bets $25.37, Hero raises to $58.76 and is all-in, BTN calls $33.39
Turn: ($144.02, 2 players) 2s
River: ($144.02, 2 players) 9s

Results: $144.02 pot ($2.00 rake)
Final Board: 6d Kd 9c 2s 9s

Hero shows Ad 2d 4c Ac: (Two Pair, Aces and Nines)
(Pre 64%, Flop 52%, Turn 38%)
BTN shows 9d Kh Ts Jc: (Full House, Nines full of Kings)
(Pre 36%, Flop 48%, Turn 63%)
BTN wins $142.02

3way tilting with low rundown

PokerStars - $0.10 PL Hi FAST (6 max) - Omaha Hi - 6 players

Hero (BTN): $10.77 (107.7 bb)
SB: $12.46 (124.6 bb)
BB: $7.04 (70.4 bb)
UTG: $14.97 (149.7 bb)
MP: $8.80 (88 bb)
CO: $10.00 (100 bb)
SB posts $0.05, BB posts $0.10

Pre Flop: (pot: $0.15) Hero has 4h 6d 3s 5d
UTG raises to $0.35, MP calls $0.35, CO raises to $1.55, Hero raises to $5.50, SB calls $5.45, 3 folds, CO raises to $10.00 and is all-in, Hero raises to $10.77 and is all-in, SB calls $5.27

Flop: ($32.34, 3 players) 2h 5h 4c
Turn: ($32.34, 3 players) 9d
River: ($32.34, 3 players) 7c

Results: $32.34 pot ($1.37 rake)
Final Board: 2h 5h 4c 9d 7c
SB shows Td 8c Ts 9c: (One Pair, Tens)
Main Pot: [$30.80]: (Pre 33%, Flop 7%, Turn 0%)
Side Pot: [$1.54]: (Pre 59%, Flop 8%, Turn 0%)
Hero shows 4h 6d 3s 5d: (Straight, Seven High)
Main Pot: [$30.80]: (Pre 32%, Flop 61%, Turn 81%)
Side Pot: [$1.54]: (Pre 40%, Flop 92%, Turn 100%)
CO shows Qc Kh Qh Ah: (One Pair, Queens)
Main Pot: [$30.80]: (Pre 34%, Flop 32%, Turn 19%)

Hero wins $30.97

Try to steal passive action, but drawing dead OTT
PokerStars - $0.10 PL Hi FAST (6 max) - Omaha Hi - 6 players

BTN: $17.61 (176.1 bb)
SB: $33.79 (337.9 bb)
BB: $17.42 (174.2 bb)
UTG: $13.64 (136.4 bb)
Hero (MP): $18.51 (185.1 bb)
CO: $4.85 (48.5 bb)
SB posts $0.05, BB posts $0.10

Pre Flop: (pot: $0.15) Hero has Qc As 9s Kc
fold, Hero raises to $0.35, fold, BTN calls $0.35, SB raises to $1.50, fold, Hero calls $1.15, BTN calls $1.15

Flop: ($4.60, 3 players) 6c Tc 2d
SB bets $4.40, Hero calls $4.40, BTN calls $4.40
Turn: ($17.80, 3 players) Ts
SB checks, Hero bets $12.61 and is all-in, BTN calls $11.71 and is all-in, SB calls $12.61
River: ($54.73, 3 players) 8d

Results: $54.73 pot ($0.00 rake)
Final Board: 6c Tc 2d Ts 8d
SB shows Qs Td 6s Ad: (Full House, Tens full of Sixes)
Main Pot: [$52.93]: (Pre 27%, Flop 43%, Turn 78%)
Side Pot: [$1.80]: (Pre 40%, Flop 57%, Turn 100%)
Hero shows Qc As 9s Kc: (One Pair, Tens)
Main Pot: [$52.93]: (Pre 38%, Flop 41%, Turn 0%)
Side Pot: [$1.80]: (Pre 59%, Flop 43%, Turn 0%)
BTN shows Jh Th 8s Kh: (Full House, Tens full of Eights)
Main Pot: [$52.93]: (Pre 34%, Flop 16%, Turn 22%)

BTN wins $51.43
SB wins $1.80

March Week 4th update:

-Play some PLO cash,
-I got 2 days of national holiday, try to play some poker, and some tournaments, not very good results
-no study yet, want to start but my mind is really tired after i got home
- I got some religion project in my monastery
- still watching porn and still fap

Next Week goals
- Play just PLO cash, PLO5 and PLO10, not taking shot at PLO25 (more discipline on BRM
- Complete the pokerstars 40% mini Rakeback Challenge
- Study 3 hours
- Post a hand discussion, and give feedback to others hand discussion
- No Fap/Jerk off

Last Week Results : -228.21
Bankroll now : $221 on pokerstars

Hi, thank you for reading this, and thank you for your honest reply.
I think what you said to me is very true for me right now.
I want to get better at this. I don't know, i have a normal life , i got 9to5 job.
I am already trapped in this poker world to get some side income, and to relieve stress and to entertain, like who doesn't love the game.
But maybe i still couldn't handle the losing session very good.
Really appreciate the reply, but I think I will try my best for this last shot :)

Hi, I am back

really failing rock bottom for the past 3 months in 2023.
I am deep in debt now to my friends. because of losing on online casino games.
I got rejected from my crush. it's really hurt. but still try to move on.

but gladly I still have a 9to5 job, to back up my daily life expense.
and still got family and friends that help me.

I don't know what else that I had to do for side income. so i just give this my last shot.
Gonna do some serious grinding.
I don't know if it's a challenge or not. but I am gonna do my best

I got some goals in the end of this year
-Get rid of this debt from my friends (~$5000)
-Got 150BI Bankroll in PLO25 ($5000)
-get healthier go to 80kg, now (95kg)

Currently Bankroll:
stars $435 and GG $80

gonna play 2 table PLO zoom/rc in PLO10 and takeshot in PLO25.
gonna do more serious on stars, because it have a 40% rb challenge.
So, my small goals is just to complete the monthly challeng first. it starts in april.
I will update the results of the challenge weekly.

so wish me luck guys, and please support my journey. it really help me.

Mindset is everything
I am addicted to gambling, I am addicted to porn.

Gambling/Poker
I can't take losing very well, always want to chasing the losing, want to play bigger games, to get bigger results.
I read so many articles or mindset video, but when i do it, i always failed it.
I decide to get a help from online mentoring for $15,
she really helps me, although it's all I already know from other material or video, but it's kinda reminding me of what I should do
the main thing she said is

"don't always want to reach the bigger goals for now. Just focus on the process, focus on the small steps"

It's really helps me to think this, and want to be focus just grinding from small again, and not to take shot, especially when lossing. will it work? idon't know, but i have to be more discipline. wish me luck guys..

PORN

stupid porn, maybe it's natural for boys to look at porn? but it's really have bad impact to my brain.
I am really adicted to it, because of the easy to browse porn, sometimes I just look at my phone, or look at my PC.
sometimes i do it when night, sometimes i look it when i am in my office at work. it really bad, it really effect my working.

I keep not to look at it, but the thrust is so bad.
If i don't you know, pop it. maybe i still have the mind at night, or maybe tomorrow , and maybe the day after.
Or even I pop it, i kinda feel bad, and not have enough mind to get other things done.

I wanna stop porn and stop masturbate.
I believe in instant karma, after I masturbate, it always give me a instant bad karma. I want to stop this. but still in the process

all of my addiction, it really damage my brain, and damage my way of thinking.

I have this girl that I like, in our religion organization. she doesn't know that I like her. I still not brave enough to tell her. because my life is still bad.
sometimes she is the reason and motivation of me to be discipline. I wanna change for her, but maybe I need help too. I don't know is this a good or bad motivation, but, i don't know.

in the end, I want to get rid of this addiction, could someone give me any tips?

Best regards

Now I play on stars with $180
and play on pokerbros with $220
why i play on them, in stars, i could block tournament, and casino games. I maybe will do the challenge for 40% rb next month.
Bros, because of the "softness" of the player like some other promote it, also i could get >35% rb weekly.

my strategy is to play PLO10 on stars and PLO20 (it's the lowest stakes here) on bros.
I know it's really bad BRM. my strategy is to play 50bb starting chips.

Could someone experience play 50bb give me tips or something? is it better just to lower 1 stakes with 100bb, rather than take shot higher stakes with 50bb?

my study plan still on preflop, i studied 100bb, now i moving to 50bb strategy.

Hi guys, an update from my challenge, it's like almost 2 weeks.

My challenge didn't go well in this 2 weeks.
Kinda still playing some NLH and MTT. run deep a couple mtt, but don't get to win big money.

Tired, Tilt, wanna chase the losing balance, try to play bigger games. I jump to PLO25 and PLO50 with my $75 bankroll, hope to get double up, back to more than $100. it didn't go well after losing AAxx preflop allin, or aggresive w/ fd, then My bankroll is down to 0.

decided to deposit another 50, 2 or 3 times. and end up playing casino games and play higherstakes to get lucky.

AND YES, I got lucky. played at flip and go, because i have a challenge in GG. played $2.5 entry, loss. play again $2.5 loss. I loss all the flip, then decide to play 1 $3 flip&go and won it, so i turn $15 to $444

Decided to withdraw the money, before i lose it all again.
I pay some of my debt with that winning. (I still have like around $1.500 debt because of poker)

then i decide not to play on GG again. I know the traffic is good, and promotion is also good, but I can't dodge playing bigger games to get the promotion, and win bigger.

Now I decide to play on stars and pokerbros. I don't know how is it going next, but hopefully it will be better than before. SO my challenge on GG is over, and the challenge now i move to stars and bros.

I wanna share some of my interesting hands. but i still remembering of my stupid decision today. luckily I still got my chance.
tomorrow I Will not chase my losing again. hopefully
Like I said this is not all about my skill or money, it's a challenge to be discipline.

Day 2, the more stupid decision by me
-so I try to finish GG honeymoon challenge
-winning $3 from AoF SnG BR:$60
-Winning C29 from GG Cares flipout tournament this really makes my confident boost BR:$60+C29 Results
-Play a couple PLO2 when I am in work (this is bad), and when i am in the barber.

-Then the stupid idea comes. if a single bet of roulette pay me 34 to 1, why I don't bet all the number? it will make me lose just some of the bet, and hopefully I could get the x50 or x1000.
when i check it's not 34to1 like normal roulette. it's just 20to1. so if i bet all the number it will guarantee me to loose 14xbets
-Then I said to myself, this is stupid. I am not playing this strategy. I am down from $60 to around $49. and said to myself okay let's just bet $9 on red and out if i am lose. i bet and win. bankroll back to $58. I should just out and play some PLO.
-BUT, I choose another number, just like drake in my social media video, hopefully win a jackpot. then lose, lose, then ** it, just bet 10 on red, and lose, bet 20 on black then lose, and bet another 20 and lose all my $60.
-I and up really tilting. and want to chase my loss. I jump to PLO25 and play from my C25 earlier, and end up win 50bb. bankroll back to $37.
-Then i want to chase my loss again to get back to $60 earlier. than decide to make fast money playing Allin/Fold nlh $8 buy in. play couple of hands win 1 and win 2 win again, until my bankroll -back to $70. I call it okay I am back. now i have to change back my limit to $5 and play discipline.
-Nope, some Idea come in mind. why i don't play 1 hand of Blackjack? just bet 10 to get back to $80 and if i lose, i still in $60.
play 1st hand and lose $11. repeat, win $11. did i stop? no bet 1 more, lose again, lose again, win again win again, then last is win. I stop when my BR is $80
-this is serious. I need to be discipline.
-last I play nlh mtt and lose $8
-play omaholic, and luckly got 3rd place for $20. now my bankroll is back in $92.
Omaholic turbo $1

So I plan to update this post weekly, but TODAY is so bad. and i need to share this maybe to get help in the future.

Long story short I can't take a loss very good. I always try to chase my loss, to get to winning in the end of my day. I know this is bad mindset. I want to fix this. please anybody give me a tips or advice not to chase loss.

Here is my DAY2 challenge. this is embarrassing in day 2.

-Day 1, starts with $50
-Sets the Responsible gaming feature not to bet more than $5
-Play some PLO2 zoom cash running pretty good, win little
-Play mtt bet&go and other small plo&nlh mtt, lose little
-Decide to try GG casino games (this is stupid of my addiction). so I look at the Roulette that have stupid electricity that will make the winner X50-X1000. I play couple of bet to chase my tournament loss. and in the end up winning like $10 more.
-End of day 1 is around $57

Hi mate, thank you for your reply and your advice

Mind sharing the 1.000.000 hands graph? thats a lot of hands on plo200 lol!

here is the graph Graph plo200 I don't know if i could post someone photo or not. but you can find him on reddit.

My goal this week [1]
-Play 7500 hands
-Discuss minimum 3 hands
-Muay thai for 4 days
-Watch 2 training videos

This is my result this year. I play much using PT4, so this HM2 result is just my last couple of weeks results