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I don't hate guys like Petterson, I just think that it's very human to compare yourself to others. It just happens automatically and when you watch a video from whoever you instantly compare yourself to these. That's why social media in a way is poison. My suggestion was revolving around the idea that you figure out by yourself what you want and need and don't listen to anyone. I am not saying that their advice is bad as a default, but we all need to live our own lifes. And we all have very different circumstances. All we can do is do the best we can while enjoying the ride as good as we can.
I have gone through good and bad times, over 40 by now, but from the majority of this planets population I live a very decent live. But I have my problems just like everyone else and they are as "important to me" as yours are to you.
And reading your posts just doesn't transmit the feeling that poker as a career is a healthy choice for you. Which it most likely is not for the vast majority... :)
But this is completely irrelevant as it's up to you and not to me.

June 12, 2021 | 8:55 a.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on NLH to the "Great Game"

Any updates? :)

June 12, 2021 | 6:31 a.m.

You should reraed what Demon wrote. I don't know your situation, but it seems a desktop job (in this case poker) is a bad choice healthwise (and socially as well).
Also to quote Einstein:
"The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."
--> This in regards to sticking to something that seems not to be working. I know myself very well that it is very difficult to give up on certain ideas/ dreams, but sometimes a different path in life can set you free. I would also recommend to you to go for a long hike, something like 4-6 weeks. If that's possible. Just get out of your rot and focus only on getting from A to B. Reevauluate your life in a kind and nice way. Try something new.
And stop expecting always perfect results. Fuck idiots like Petterson. LOL. All this optimizing is so idiotic, just think deeply about what you really enjoy and do more of that (unless it's taking drugs and raping animals, then that's not a good idea...). Do you really enjoy doing x or y, then do it, but if you don't then just let it be.
Be kind to yourself! And enjoy your life!

June 12, 2021 | 6:24 a.m.

Regarding that Ivey Interview: Did Joey gain some weight? Or was it just that terrrible shirt? I hope the latter :) I haven't watched any of his stuff for quite some while, so maybe it's the new look ^^

June 12, 2021 | 6:13 a.m.

Just to add another option for a good animal charity:
It's the committee against bird slaughter
In case you think those donkeys are doing well enough and you are on the lookout for another one :) / have more money to spend ^^ (my bank account is always open, dm for details ^^)
In case you order from Amazon, check out if is available in your country. Prize stays the same but I think 1% goes to a selected charity.

June 10, 2021 | 12:32 p.m.

Agree with the fold preflop.
Also don't like the bet on the flop, we have equity and don't want to just give it away if we get raised. Maybe having 3 clubs is a reason to bet, because we are more unlikely to improve on the turn. PLO NOOB Here :)

June 9, 2021 | 8:29 a.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on NLH to the "Great Game"

Hi RoleTide,

  • Monkersolver is a software you can a) afford and b) need to get into
  • PLO Trainer (Mastermind) I think you can practice Pre- and Postflop, but have no real idea. Also I don't know how good their content really is. Maybe geared more towards microstakes, but for 100$ that would be quite expensive. I can't judge their product and I think the PLO trainer is not included any longer but you need to pay 80$ per month for it.
  • Preflop Guru lets you practice preflop ;) You can choose between different rake environments
  • upswing bought another PLO preflop tool, can't think of the name right now.
  • simple poker has a PLO pack I think as well.
  • what about coaching? This in combination with Monkersolver is probably the best choice I would say.

I am also curious what you think about the course? Was considering to get it, but haven't made up my mind. Given that you are already looking for other resources kinda makes me believe that you find it too basic or something else :)

"I constantly value own myself. I think many of the players are passive at this stake with made hands when they don't have the nuts. Therefore, they prefer to check call their Q hi flushes etc..." --> this is something you just need to get used to. The nuts are more relevant overall.

Which stake do you start?

Your plan looks very good and intense! :) Do you have enough games running? I prefer to play in the early hours (Europe) but was actually quite surprised to see how few reg tables are running.


June 2, 2021 | 6:59 a.m.

Like I said last time: Congrats on handling it so far without losing your shit.
In a way I wonder though if the games you play in are fishy enough. I play lower, but when there are 6 regs on the table, you need to wonder who is really winning. And Poker is about making money. So, maybe change the site, play at other hours, play reg tables (if these are zoom). Change the pace of the game. Go down a limit, get confidence back up. Be aware of what your edge is. This may be helpful in dealing with variance. Try shorter sessions.
Plenty of options, meditate, exercise, take a walk and so on.
A lot of the stuff are coolers/variance as you know all to well. It hurts and so on, but from a bigger point of view it's part of the game you/we need to accept and cherish. It's what makes the game work in "our" favour. I am not good at handling these either, so it's easier said than done.
Good luck and may you get stronger out of it (also read I think Cyds blog, he experienced something like 55 Buyin Downer).
Grit was the book you mentioned right, maybe it's time to show it! :)

May 22, 2021 | 5:23 p.m.

Baden-Baden is actually very close to where I live. I would not say it's especially interesting :)
It's famous for its bath's, it's casino and rich people living there, but that doesn't make it a place worth visiting imo. If you enjoy medieval places, then Rothenburg ob der Tauber and Dinkelsbühl are in my mind the top 2 places. A very nice place is Freiburg im Breisgau in the southwest of Germany. It was the first place to be run by the green party and the standard of living is very high. But it obviously depends on what you are looking for.
Landscape wise Germany has interesting places, but on a greater scale I think there are way more interesting places to go. Major downside of Germany in my mind is the general food quality. Yes, you can find good places, but if you compare it to Southeast Asia for example I think it's horrific (and I am german ^^). Austria/Switzerland for mountains, Scandinavia for obvious landscape reasons (especially the northern parts) are great. If you are into hiking you should check out Kungsleden. It's the longest track in northern Sweden and a great hike. Portugal is a place I enjoy a lot, but the south has developed tremendously with regards to tourism. Overall I think going by bike or hiking often let's you get in touch with places on a deeper level.

I am sure that traveling Siberia would be a great experience. Well, dreaming of least I got my first shot with Astra today, so the dream is getting a bit more real again. Let's hope for the best! (For now I would be happy with an open gym and pool...)

May 20, 2021 | 12:08 p.m.

I live in Germany, but lived in other countries and have moved a lot (too much...)
Canada has been the friendlist place I've ever visited! That's for sure. I cycled from Vancouver over Vancouver Island and the national parks (Benff and Jasper) for roughly 6 weeks. We got stopped on the street and invited to the house. She wanted us to sleep at her place, while she was gone picking up her son. We only ended up using her jacuzzi and took a swim in the ocean. But it's a memory I will carry with me forever. It's 25 years ago, no idea if people are the same there. I hope! :)

May 20, 2021 | 10:54 a.m.

I actually had to google MGTOW. I seriously have no idea what is wrong with so many people... :)
I agree with you on the differences regarding city/countryside, but overall I think it has become harder to get to know people. When we got our newborn, I kinda expected that a lot of people love "babies" and that they would be nice/polite. While walking our dog in the city park with our baby in my arms an old grumpy man actually elbow checked me because he didn't want to give way. I am aware it's just one person, but the lack of empathy is quite apparent. We have baby parking spots at the supermarket and only within this short time frame I can't count how often people of all ages blocked these. To me, people are always writing/saying that we should be more polite/helpful, but it's the same people that can't show basic decent behavior in every day life. I suppose Corona won't help much with these problems.
Regarding countryside, having a dog and then just talking to people is a good icebreaker, but in the end you will meet very few people that are interested in a conversation (at least that's my experience). I guess it's even less in cities.

May 20, 2021 | 7:48 a.m.

Are you able to exercise? How about yoga? Or QiGong?
My father has severe back pains and I have some as well, I am aware how it drains your energy. Get strong, this helps so much. Swimming is so good as well.

May 19, 2021 | 6:01 p.m.

I am very impressed! I would kill myself (half joking) if I were down this much :)
It is a great step if you can tell that this is mainly variance/ in your control and it only affects your play to a small degree. Good luck for the turn around. (We are not playing the same limits, so go get lucky ^^)

May 7, 2021 | 12:41 p.m.


I am not sure if this applies here, but a way to prevent from going over the things that you "can/do know" and work instead on the things that you have difficulties with is by using the spaced repetition approach. You can use a software like Anki for example and create flashcards. It is free on your PC and free if you have an android phone.
"Spaced repetition is an evidence-based learning technique that is usually performed with flashcards. Newly introduced and more difficult flashcards are shown more frequently, while older and less difficult flashcards are shown less frequently in order to exploit the psychological spacing effect. The use of spaced repetition has been proven to increase rate of learning" from Wikipedia.
I used this system for my hunting license and my university degree. It is very helpful in my mind if you don't overload the cards. You can find plenty of instructions on youtube on how to setup ankicards. In general I think it is a great tool to memorize stuff --> preflop ranges, flop x leads to action y. Try to keep it simple. For example: I am memorizing 3bet ranges from different positions right now and I can see that I stumble over the same cards on a daily basis. These cards have too much information (full range from a certain position). For me it is much easier to memorize something like: Which Pocket Pairs do you 3bet 100% from the BTN vs EP for example. This will extend your deck, but going through 50-100 cards a day doesn't take very long. The act of creating might take longer though :)
Since I have no subscription to stuff like GTOwizard or LucidGTO I always wonder if they have this system integrated in their trainers. It is not very effective if you constantly repeat the stuff you know. It will make you go superficially through your deck.
When I practice, I also dislike just saying the answer, but instead prefer to write it down. We are all different but learning only visually is not effective for me.

And if you want to learn a language, there are hundreds of decks available on Anki. So, I think it's great :)
Also, read this, it's a summary of a book that has been recommended here. Peak.

Hope this helps.

May 7, 2021 | 12:39 p.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on Level 2

Hello there,

quick update. Found a reasonable routine since our boy is at the kindergarden for ~ 6 hours between monday and friday. I did put in some hands this week and also worked on my preflop game. Next week things will change again, I am going back to work :)(:
So, no time to play in the mornings. I will need to play in the evening. Goal for the coming weeks is to just work on preflop with flash cards and play solid.
My meditation has slipt quite a bit. I would like to do it first thing in the morning, but when I sit down I am constantly wondering if he is awake or not. The gym is closed again ;(
Life is good overall.
Hope you are all doing fine.
Any book recommendations?

April 24, 2021 | 5:10 p.m.


very interesting read overall. Would you recommend the book? I read a summary of it, I am wondering if it would be worth paying for it. Are there guidelines/examples on how to improve ones "grit"?
GL and it will take the time that is going to take! Something we want to ignore all the time...

April 24, 2021 | 5 p.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on I Cash Out!!!!

Cookies seem to be mighty :)
Good luck. Also, on more thought. Doing Yoga with a focus on the breath is very similar. Doing the sun greeting for example could also be an option. In case you don't like the sitting still part.

April 8, 2021 | 9:24 a.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on I Cash Out!!!!

I can recommend the Waking Up App from Sam Harris. They have a daily meditation (10 or 20 Minutes). Maybe paying for the App gives you the needed incentive to get going. You can try 1 Month for free.
I think it's quite interesting how certain things are super easily established, but some things are just super hard. For me sports and also meditation are super easy, but I find it very difficult to sit down and watch a video/ do work for even a set amount on a regular (daily) basis.
I also think its helpful to have a set place in your apartment/house where you do it. A meditation cushion is really nice.
Another thing could be to attach it to something you find easy. Like, you take a shower every morning and now you just sit down 5-10 minutes afterwards for your meditation. I actually think that feeling refreshed and clean shows that you care about meditation.
Another thing could be that you first have to meditate and then get to eat a cookie or whatever.
Get a reward right away. The App Insight Timer has a streak counter, which can be nice too. You might not want to lose the streak. It's not really what meditation is about, but it can be benificial in the beginning.

April 7, 2021 | 6:13 p.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on Level 2

10/10 short one. Will take a break now. Will maybe write again in the future. We will see.
Good luck and stay healthy ^^

Feb. 25, 2021 | 5:50 p.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on Level 2

9/10 played some earlier, not 25 minutes or so, but I realize that playing in the evening when I am always tired and exhausted ain't the best idea...I will most likely take a break and just study for a bit (when I have time) and then get back to the tables when our son is in kindergarden. Right now I am between D and E in terms of quality of play. Frustrating and not worth it, since the money isn't important anyhow.
Ordered some bottles of nice white wine. We have 20°C already and so I can start the white wine season already by the end of February :) Life's a bitch ^^

Feb. 24, 2021 | 4:21 p.m.

Hi, when fixing your sleep schedule, try not to go from 0 to Hero, but instead move it by something like 15 or 30 minutes. Then do this for a week and then add the next 15 minutes.
Also, you can try using Flux for your pc if you spend the evenings in front of it. And don't head right into bed after playing. Take something like 30 minutes to cool off. Reading something boring helps with sleep as well :)

Feb. 24, 2021 | 7:21 a.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on Level 2

8/10 done. Got smacked on the tables ^^ probably played bad too. Just tired and exhausted.

Feb. 23, 2021 | 6:29 p.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on Level 2

7/10 done. Was tired, but okay. Weather is good and first icecream of the year :)

Feb. 22, 2021 | 6:06 p.m.

This is so much me as well :)( Very good about the spreadsheet, I hope and I am certain it helps! Do you have a set amount of time you play?

Feb. 21, 2021 | 6:36 p.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on Level 2

6/10 done.
Ran good in allin with FD vs Top Set. Bad call on my end, thought my equity would be better. Playing regular tables is a lot more relaxing.
Any ideas what do to after the 10th session? There should be a small increase. Either I will add some playtime = extend to 30minutes or add some study time, but don't think I can find that much time yet.
Real life issues... I was looking into wine fridges. Anyone here can recommend a good 2 zone one? :)

Feb. 21, 2021 | 6:34 p.m.

I wish you all the best with your little one!
And also, take it easy with the life style changes. You'll find that you sleep a lot less and this will decrease your productivity by quite a bit, at least that's what happened in my case :)

Feb. 21, 2021 | 6:28 p.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on Level 2

5/10 done.
Actually fucked up a bit yesterday and played some more and obvioulsy ran like Jesus...NOT :)
Will continue still, try to be kind to myself. Now off to a nice glass of red wine...
Also, playing 4 reg tables, in my age the slower pace is preferable, also more fishy plays ^^

Feb. 20, 2021 | 6:19 p.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on Level 2

4/10 done. Early today

anyone here playing NL10 on GG? Thoughts about the pool? Compared to Stars?

Can I import GG Handhistories to Pt4?

Feb. 19, 2021 | 4:26 p.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on Level 2

3/10 finished. Captain Teemo Reporting for Duty ^^

Feb. 18, 2021 | 6:34 p.m.

Comment | Aquila commented on Level 2

RoleTide you are probably right from a strategic (rake) point of view, but for me this is about setting out to do a task and then execute it. As simple as it might be, but gotta start with the consistency somewhere. I am very prone to switching plans or cashing out and then reloading and all this idiocy. I need to be able to take more hits without doing stupid stuff, like chasing losses or cashing out = Hero needs more Hitpoints and a better armor :)

2/10 finished. Lost some, ran with quads into straight flush and with AA vs top set vs shortstack. Doesn't matter at all. If I want to play PLO, then that's nothing unusual at all. Gotta accept the role of the dice and roll with it...

Feb. 17, 2021 | 6:23 p.m.

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