Hello everyone. I'm back with a short update as promised. I've had really good results at NL200 in the last 3 weeks and I continue to win at over 10bb/100 which feels great. I've been working on my gameplan and still have plenty of stuff to go over but I already see that it's paying off at the tables.
Since the title of this blog includes the word "exponential" I'll be more than happy to share with you an exponentially growing graph with my results in 2020.
I still hope to match Patrick's results from last year but I don't need to rush and I know that I should focus on increasing my skill level instead cause I don't have much control over how much money I win.
I've already noticed two types of tilt that come up quite regularly in my sessions which are entitlement tilt ("I have a high WR therefore I should win") and revenge tilt ("This guy 3bet me/won vs me again therefore my self-esteem drops and I have to do something to have a superior ego again!") and I'll definitely need to keep an eye on them. Also, I sometimes feel a bit anxious before playing and I believe the reason for it is that I fear losing my self-worthiness which I somehow connected to my poker results which is obviously silly. I think I'll go back to Elliot's course to try to resolve all of this.
Today I finally invested some money in a hobby I'm going to dive into. Recently I've started to experiment with freestyling and I really enjoy doing this so I decided to get myself a microphone. I've always had this little dream of releasing my own album, just for the pure fun of creating something by myself :) I'm also planning to buy a handpan but I have trouble choosing the scale. Here's one of my favorite songs played on this instrument:
Malte Marten - When the Wind Talks
This is it for today, thanks for reading. I wish you a happy 4/20!
April 20, 2020 | 2:54 p.m.
That's exactly my experience right now. I decided to get myself a mic today as lately I started rapping to myself for fun so I might as well record and play with it. I think so much about frequencies and numbers that I sometimes even dream about it lol. I need to schedule in more breaks. Hope you find something that you can enjoy doing during the quarantine. GL :)
April 12, 2020 | 10:21 p.m.
Also, when it comes to yoga, check out my favorite YT yoga teacher: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCahoXO8yh6mqJD9EiARHI7w
She has a really nice vibe and there are a couple of "challenges" on her channel that can ease your way into a regular daily yoga practice. Enjoy!
April 11, 2020 | 9:47 p.m.
Hi. I'm 29yo and I've been playing online poker since I was 14. I never had a "real" job, poker always kept me above the ground financially. However, I never made it to high stakes, I played up to 5/10 but it was like 10 years ago. I have to admit that mindset has always been my Achilles' heel and I also never really put much volume in. I think it's mainly due to my early exposure to relatively big money when I was a teenager which definitely spoiled me and made me feel like I don't need to work that much to maintain that easy lifestyle.
Thanks to the god of time - Chronos - I slowly matured mentally and started to take poker more seriously. I have always been very analytical and would consider myself a perfectionist (which is probably another reason for my low volume and mindset issues) and a couple of years ago I came across Nick Howard's videos and got really interested in his methodology of pure exploitation and decided to buy his Night Vision course. I really want to thank him, his brother Patrick and the entire Pokerdetox community for inspiring me in my own research.
I had to drop down in stakes last year but finally something clicked for me and I started to print at NL50 and now I'm taking shots at NL200. Regs are a little bit more aware of what's going on at the table but the fish are no different at all. I have a plan to move up as quickly as I can and hopefully crush 10/20 soon just like Patrick (love his blog), taking shots with a relatively small bankroll that I think my recent results allow me to do.
To be honest, this lockdown came at just the right time for me. I'm in the middle of creating a new upgraded gameplan which is going to take me a lot of hours to finish and now I don't have any excuses not to do it because my social life is basically gone :) Here's my graph in BBs for the year so far:
My plan for the coming weeks is to first of all focus on mental and physical hygiene (which in my case is the practice of meditation, gratitude, yoga and some light calisthenics), continue my research and gameplan development and play high quality poker at least 5 days a week.
I live by myself so I need to have some fun in these tough times of isolation. And since I'm a huge fan of psychedelics, I'll allow myslef one mini trip on a third of an acid hit before 4/20 when I'm going to celebrate these three weeks of hard work with a fat joint or two. I'm not sure how regularly I'll post here but you can definitely expect an update right before I light up that funny cigarette :)
Stay safe guys, cheers!