Been working on my game consistently. I feel like I am improving a lot and I am also aware of the things I need to work on. So pretty good spot to be in. Today I shot nl200 and it went well. Other than this not really much of an update, corona has everything quarantined, and I have just been playing poker/grinding pio/ and reading and meditating.
I finished "Blink" recently and thought it was pretty good, you could say I am a Malcom Gladwell fan now haha
Cheers to everyone :)
May 4, 2020 | 4:39 p.m.
ryanspicer Awesome recommendation. Listened to it once, and on my second go now. I think i will actually order the book to take notes and stuff, but i think I will probably hear this 10+ times throughout the year. :) So much value in this.
April 6, 2020 | 2:56 p.m.
Have learned a lot about myself in the past few days, Overall just really grateful for where I am at and to be working with the people that I’m working with. Have found many leaks in my game and also in life and have been working really hard to make adjustments. One of the more recent leaks I found in my game was that I was forcing things way too much. Forcing decision points for villain’s, for myself, everyone!! haha, you name it and I’m probably doing it. I recently came across an Alan Watts video about Wu Wei and it really helped me understand what I was doing.
I also had a lesson in gratitude this week. On Saturday my discord stopped working at all, I think there was something going on with the ISP. But I couldn’t use it to communicate, and could only see messages via data on my phone. And I tried everything and gave up on it haha. Then all of a sudden on Monday it started working again, and I was so grateful, and that made me realize just how much I don’t value everything in my life nearly enough, anyways on Monday I ended up getting 2nd place in an MTT on PPP, for about 1,6k AUS. Which is wonderful 😊. Then I took the rest of the day off to study and chill. That lead to me only studying on Tuesday, and then I put in a lot of sessions yesterday and today, and the games have been insane. I cant even describe it lol.
Anyways I can feel myself locking in on my goals, and everyday we are improving little by little. I don’t know if I really have any major goals, except for reading some books. I try to just make weekly goals. This week I will study SB vs BU 3BP 100bbs.
The gym is still closed so just doing lots of yoga and meditation. :D
Namaste to you all!
April 2, 2020 | 11 p.m.
I think you would like Atomic habits by James Clear - and Deep Work by Cal Newport. 100% must reads!
April 2, 2020 | 8:31 p.m.
lets fucking go!! :)
April 1, 2020 | 11:56 p.m.
Sup guys. Been doing just fine lately. Corona virus has people freaking the fuck out, but im being a good citizen and staying home and grinding all day. :D
Still being a baby about running bad, but it is affecting me less and less every day. Have been gradually increasing the amount of time I meditate, and today I started to do 25 minutes, which felt great, and for some reason I can’t tell the difference between 10 minutes and 25, I still find myself getting lost in thoughts, but my ability to come back to the present moment has increased quite a bit, I just let the thoughts fly away.
Been putting in longer sessions and more of them, this past week the games were really good so I didn’t put in many study hours, I think that I will mainly study on Sunday/Monday as it seems like these are the days when there isn’t much action. And then the rest of the week I’ll stick to 1-2 hours of studying opposed to trying to squeeze in 4-5.
Due to corona virus they closed my gym and that’s got me pretty bummed as I was really getting into working out. But have started to do yoga daily again. So we’ve got that going for us. I also started to go to bed at 8PM, and am waking up at 4AM. I feel amazing with this schedule, I was doing it backwards for the beginning of the year. But yeah, waking up at 4AM makes me really happy for some reason, I get to meditate in silence, then slow pour some coffee, and then read some Tony Robbins, then journal and cold shower, all before 6AM. So it feels like I get half a days work in 2 hours, then usually from 6AM-7AM I review some spots and then start my grind, I usually start to feel tired at around 1-3PM which is pretty much ok.
And been reading some Herman Hesse, I find his writing to be beautiful because it’s almost like reading my thoughts.
Here is one of his essays.
Also been reading some Dostoyevsky, but this dude is a mind fuck, and I suspect the translation kinda sucks, but ill make an effort to finish Crime and Punishment.
Vs a decent reg
this hand tilted this mofo and produced the next hand :V
Solve for why this pigeon thought I was afraid of him and his bullshit line
March 23, 2020 | 4:29 p.m.
is that discord open to join?
March 11, 2020 | 2:39 p.m.
Sup guys, thanks for the comments. I'm going to try really hard to do that 1 day off haha, I think I will probably volunteer at the Ronald Mcdonald house or something similar. If I'm going to take a day off from poker i don't want it to be for watching netflix or something haha.
ryanspicer The camp was in Costa Rica, it's called "camp Dreamsea". interesting place lol
I'm definitely going to be playing some live in the next few weeks, dunno how much or if this will happen, scared of Corona virus lol.
For me I dont know if its an ego thing to want to beat online cash at a high level. Like I grinded a ton of live cash last year and wasnt the biggest fan of that grind. I also think that I personally want to play high stakes because of the competition aspect of it (which im not sure is healthy) but once you reach a certain point the games obviously get tougher but they also get really interesting.
I think I will be updating this weekly, I will try to include something interesting that I read for the week, and also a seflie from the gym to track my progress. (I have a bet to get built with my buddies)
Week 11 Gym Update https://imgur.com/a/I30Tyj5
This is probably my favorite page from "ego is the enemy". I am going to work really hard to incorporate this philosophy.
March 10, 2020 | 9:15 p.m.
Tough couple of months to start off the year. Played some live at the beginning and it didn't really go my way. Then played online and it went OK for part of January, but still ran under. Sometimes we lose sight of the whole picture and complain, I know I do. Even though things don't go well in poker, you still gotta remember just how lucky you are to play this game, to have a roof, clothes, food etc. Even though I've been feeling like crap the past couple of weeks, I feel my mental strength getting stronger, cause after all the run bad, you realize that win or lose not much changes. You just gotta come back and put in the volume, and that's all that counts in this game. You give it your all every day, and then you get to sleep knowing you did your best.
I think I need to find more balance life wise, tough for an introvert. I still go to handball practice, and lift weights regularly, but other than that, its just me, the tables, and pio. I find it tough to take days off. I simply can't to be honest. Even when I set days apart, there's always an inner itch to study a spot, or to watch a video or something. I actually feel weird not doing something poker related. I guess i can tone it down a bit though, been doing poker daily for 10+ hours, and ive taken maybe 1 day off from the grind, and im sure i still studied on that day off lol.
I've also quit smoking weed, and I'm basically 5x more efficient.
dunno what else to add to this, just been playing alot, taking any heads up spots that i can get, ive learned this is my favorite game. and then the rest has been 6max. also been reading a lot, finishing up outliers and ego is the enemy. recommend both.
March 9, 2020 | 4:03 a.m.
I lost a lot of interest in having a blog, but here we go.
The past few months are only but a blur.
Looking back, I would not change a thing, but moving forward I’m going to make a lot of changes.
Time is just an illusion, in my opinion, however, since the calendar year is almost over, I will make a small recap of the good things I did, and the not so good.
The good stuff!
I got into yoga again. And have been practicing daily. I cannot recommend this enough.
Ashtanga quickly became my favorite!
I became a vegetarian, occasionally I will eat very small amounts of fish (sushi lol), but 98% of the time I’m eating a vegetarian diet. This was huge for me because it was a goal I had for a long time, and I finally pulled the trigger. I am very much at peace with this decision, and there is no going back. I feel great with the diet, and I do not miss meat at all.
I have been cold showering for the past month, and I can say that my body feels completely different. I don’t feel a lot of aches like I used to. There isn’t really much discomfort anymore. If you are considering doing this. I would say don’t be a little bitch and just do it!
I have been meditating consistently. I feel very aware of my emotions.
I studied poker for more than 1,000 hours. At first, the quality of the content that I was studying wasn’t so great, but toward the end of the sample, the quality of study time has dramatically risen. Oceanfront Pio session haha
I have also transitioned to sleeping on the floor, on a thick mat. The first day was a bit weird, but then my body got used to the hard surface.
I was a part of a surf and yoga camp for almost 3 weeks, and this was such a rich experience, mainly it was a very uncomfortable environment, but I learned to appreciate all the small things a WHOLE lot more, the camp was in the middle of a rain forest, so the humidity was insane, I’m talking about clothes becoming damp just because you left them out hanging. For fuck's sake haha.
This basically made clean clothes a luxury. There were also no hot showers. No kitchen to cook in (in return breakfast and dinner was served)
There were a bunch of mosquitoes and bugs, there was no privacy because I was bunking with about 20 people in the same room. There were people snoring, there was light pollution during bedtime, there was sand in my bed, the bathroom was about 100 meters away. Sometimes the dogs would sleep in my bed during the daytime, leaving dirt on my bed. Ahhh I don’t miss that. I also had to do a daily chore, which was cleaning the toilets, pure uncomfortableness.
But I stuck with it and learned that you can really get through anything.
In return, I got a beautiful community of people from all around the world, daily yoga, sick beaches. Insane experiences.
I witnessed a sea turtle come out of the ocean, dig a hole, lay her eggs, bury them, and then sneak back into the ocean. I was very high for this experience and had such a deep connection to nature, it almost makes me cry thinking about it. It was sick that I got to interact with a being from a completely different world. Not only that, but I was experiencing life happening, watching her struggle was beautiful, Albert Camus’s, The Myth of Sisyphus came to mind here. I was also shaking because of all of the stars and just how beautiful they were. It was beautiful to acknowledge that all of my ancestors walked beneath the same sky and that they as well had the same struggles as me, maybe they didn’t have to worry about how to defend the big blind correctly, but they all had to worry about living and progressing. This whole experience really made me value life. From this I learned to simplify life, this has since then transitioned into how I’m approaching poker.
The not so good stuff
I really gotta stop reading new books while I have other unfinished ones lol.
I think that I have been treating poker like a video game, give or take. It just seems like a stake is a level I have to beat, and that the money doesn't matter. I'm just out there trying to make the best decision. Yeah, this is nice and all but I don't think I have made a concrete plan. Sure I have studied a lot, and put in a lot of volume, but I don't really have an outline for what, and how I want to accomplish that what. Which I think is really -ev. Going forward I want to treat the game with a lot more respect, and a lot more professionally. I also want to have a crystal clear image of why I'm playing poker, and where I want to go with it. More importantly what I want to accomplish with it.
This thought is in part because lately, I've been thinking about growing up in many areas of life, I'm not a teenager anymore, and time is relentless. I want to make the best of my time. I turned 23 earlier this month, and that really hit me like a train, cause mentally I feel like I'm 15. But time isn't stopping because I feel like I'm 15 haha.
So going forward I want to be more professional, and I want to establish clear systems for achieving my goals.
I don't want to rush through any phases in life, I want to take my time, be present and enjoy the process.
I wish everyone a happy new year.
Be present, be aware!
Dec. 25, 2019 | 4:10 a.m.
Yesterday I had my first live cash game session in a while. it was not a huge a winning session but i won huge in many ways. I made correct lay downs, correct raises and my mistakes were very very minimal, so I'm extremely happy about that. I also handled my emotions very well, there were many times when I couldn't get any value with monster hands, or my monster hands lost, you name it, but we still kept our shit together, and for that I'm proud of the work I'm doing.
I'm feeling extremely happy with the way things are going, and its just nice to know you really just gotta trust the process.
I want to share some valuable lessons I've learned in the past few days.
Anyhow, lets crush it this month guys!
Sept. 4, 2019 | 1:08 a.m.
This is probably an exploitative player. It looks to me like he doesn't think you have a calling range on the river, which I think weak NL25 players probably dont have one, especially considering the spade draw missed, and no A or K hit the board, and the wheel draw went kaputt!
Whats your checking range on the turn?
Sept. 1, 2019 | 7:32 p.m.
So a little update.
Hours studied in August: 200
Hours played: 70
Days off: 2
Joints smoked: lost count
I'm not really balanced life wise, For the past 45 days I have been studying. Thats basically it. I have played tops 70 hours of poker in the last 45 days lol. cause everyday is mainly "work", but I'm totally fine with that. I'm really excited about the work I'm doing. Everyday I wake up and I'm ready to work, and I'm happy with that!
I basically just wake up meditate, do yoga, eat and study. Then I go out for lunch, then i take a nap, then I continue to study, then I take my dog out for a walk. and thats it. It's amazing what a low stress environment can do for you. I have learned/ improved so much in this period. Of course it helps to have a great teacher. After all this it is very clear to me just how fishy I am, and its also clear how much work there is to do! but im down! I am also taking a different approach, I'm basically just 1 tabling. I'm a big fan of this now, sure volume suffers but w.e. It is sick just how much you miss when youre multitabling. There are so many factors that go into good decisions in poker, and you really need to be focused to spot everything. This is why when you see gameplay reviews, and whoever is reviewing is like "this person is unaware of their range, or of the whole situation etc" its because they're just either autopiloting, or they are really not taking their time to make decisions. the importance of 1 tabling is to also be able to pay attention to how everyone is playing. I'm not doing super long sessions, its mainly a 1-2 hour session, and then i review my gameplay.
Here's my graph for NL50
There's a lot of work to do, I also punted a lot of stacks learning how to play vs the pool. I'm working on not punting lol but sometimes there are some sick spots where you say, they dont have a calling range in this spot, and they end up heroing with like bottom pair xD but redline warriors go to heaven!
I will also try to post at least 3 times per week from now on!
Aug. 31, 2019 | 8:27 a.m.
I apologize maybe I didnt make it so clear, im just saying i dont wanna post or state " I wanna make millions" cause i think its obvious haha id rather make small goals that will compound in the long run. Obviously fighting for every small win along the way.
July 7, 2019 | 2:10 a.m.
I am 22 years old. I took a huge break from poker. I had a lot of mixed feelings with it and a lot of life stuff going on as well. Prior to taking the break I was playing Heads up poker on WPN and on some Chinese sites. I was also receiving coaching from TJSuited. shout out to him, love that guy :P.
I came back stronger than ever and really motivated.
Recap of the month of June.
Finished the semester at Uni, i am dropping out tho. focusing on poker 100%
I quit my job mid way.
I grinded 75 hours of 1/2 live. (with aprox a 3k profit)
12k hands of NL25 zoom. with a 11/100 bb win rate.
I also studied a lot of PIO and spoke a ton with my friends.
Anyways, im not going to make any huge goals, because huge goals are obvious. We all wanna achieve great things. For the moment I stand by my goal of getting better at live poker. I would like to be playing 2/5 before the end of the year. and I also want to be playing Nl200 online by the end of the year as well. My main goal however is to just play beautiful poker. I guess I can explain what I mean by beautiful poker when i feel inspired to hahaha
Short goals for this month
Finish reading applications of NL Holdem
Grind at least 100 hours of 1/2
Play at least 30k zoom hands (I mainly 1-2 table, so its a lot)
Meditate/ do yoga daily
eat super clean
sleep 8 hours daily