I would like to ask for help:)
I feel like this is something which has been holding me back my whole poker "career". When I am playing poker, I am more often focus on winning (not necessarily for the sake of money) in order to prove myself that I can beat those guys, I am literally hunting for the feeling of satisfaction from winnings. Probably it has something to do with my ego, because when I am losing, it sucks a lot and not because of the amount of money I lost, but rather just the feeling of being beaten by someone. I immediately start to feel as a loser even if I lose couple of small pots in a row.
While at the same table I forget about the joy of competing.. having the opportunity to play such a game as poker is vs other guys, to test my strategy, explore new ways etc thats so much to be excited about in this trajectory..
So I would really like to get into the second mode (knowing its going to take some time..), because I feel like if I really want to succeed in poker (highstakes+) and my grind can not be driven by satisfaction from winnings..
Any thoughts on how to handle this perception would be really cool, open to even deeper feedback or discussion:)