carpet_crawler

I suck at poker.

I'm writing this purely for my own purpose, but if anyone stumbles upon it and finds it useful or interesting, so be it.

I had a long break from poker, last time I made a serious grind was back in late 2011, since then I cashed out and focused on graduating and getting settled with job. Lately I felt this urge to get back online and just play a bit for fun, make sure I'm not getting rusty etc. And to my unpleasant surprise, I was't rusty. I was broken. Games at stakes that I had no problem beating became too hard. I was making mistake after mistake, which led me to very passive stance, which led me to a mind set of giving up for good. It took me some time to humble myself and accept one thing- I suck at poker. For many reasons. But I also felt that playing poker even if I was loosing and tilting was giving so much more satisfaction than my job (which I do not hate, I actually like my job). So I decided to take few steps back. Actually, few steps is an understatement. I am going back to the very bottom. I will play the lowest possible stakes, but poker gods be my winess- I will get better, I will get back to the level I want to be at and beyond that. I start anew.