Amazing work! Read the whole post. You can notice the increase of understanding and progress in the game over time only by what you write. Don't even mind the graphs.
About your goals, motivation and confidence:
From a psychological perspective you should not have "result oriented goals" or a goal big enough that you can divide to many goals and the end result will be your "original goal". The harder the goal or the less you can control the outcome, the harder it is to maintain motivation and also resulting in losing confidence and ultimately losing concentration. Just stating the worst case scenario.
Because I just read the whole post, I can see a very clearly how its very hard for you to find motivation or energy to put in many hours. I don't necessarily its just a matter off putting in less hours. Of what I can see is, for the first time in this in this post, you have the most pressure on yourself. What has changed you might ask? (correct me if am wrong):
Your older goals where clearer, such as:
Becoming a winner at your stakes
Improving the red line
Being strict with your BR
These mentioned goals gave you the motivation and the desire to put in many hours. These goals where more defined and easy for the mind. So every time you work with these goals you see progress, even if the results don't go your way. Still you are making good improvements, and for that your mind rewards you with motivation(happy feelings).
Your goals now are great but not defined enough for you.Your big goal now is to make enough money for 50NL and you also feel time pressure of some sort. This is very different from your earlier goals. You are doing yourself a disfavor when putting goals in form of earning money. Its very easy for the brain to base the result on your skills or ability, even though you know that is not the case always. There will be some sessions where you feel great and play your best many hours, but the result doesn't really match the performance. In terms of motivation it will be very hard to take away the good bits from that session, which would have kept you motivated and giving you a sense of accomplishments. So I would advice you to not view the BR-goal as your main goal, but rather as a result of accomplishing all other smaller goals.
a weird example of this but it will make a point:
If you want to do laundry and your "to-do list" state:
* Do laundry
Of course its not hard but to wash your clothes, but the point is its a process. So for the mind not to be lazy, and find some motivation in completing the task your list should more like this:
*take out the clothes
*sort them into different colors
*but them into the machine
* fold them
On a bigger scale(as your goals) these will be very helpful to keep goals more handy and easy to work with on day-to-day basis. Eventually, resulting into increased motivation, confidence and concentration.
This was purely focused on the psychological part of the game. Not so much about poker. I really enjoyed your post and seeing how well you are doing. Me, being very interested in psychology, put some time on this to try help in any way a can. Hope it helps a bit.
July 25, 2016 | 2:14 a.m.
I like this Windows theme, wich one is it?
Sept. 16, 2014 | 7:41 p.m.
I think MrSneeze is spot on here. If he is calling 5bets with trash then why not build a big pot preflop and continue on the flop. You are def putting the pressure on him and that will allow you to win more pots against this type of players. I wouldnt be surprise of he showed A3o
May 6, 2014 | 3:59 p.m.
I agree! Taking a small deposit and try running it up MTT is rarerly gonna be a proof for someone's skill. Its possible, but variance is such a huge factor in MTT especially if its small sample. Correct me if am wrong :)
April 26, 2014 | 9:46 a.m.
So Usama bin laden clearly had a slight edge on Adam Sandler. Now we now what started the war :/
Joking aside, your graph skills tells me you got one heck of a thick beard!
April 26, 2014 | 9:17 a.m.
Thats pretty much how beards work and how it effects your Winrate/performance!
April 26, 2014 | 7:19 a.m.
Its all in the beard!
April 25, 2014 | 5:08 p.m.
I agree with you. The play didnt feel right at the time but I couldnt really think of it in the way you are reefering to. It was only a couple of hands in into the session. Maybe i shouldnt fold hands this strong with the pott odds im being offered! Thanks for the input
April 13, 2014 | 9:02 a.m.
Thanks for the reply Chael. Sounds good. If it didnt play out the way it did, is there any way Im getting away from this? I knew at the time it wasnt a good play but the fold might have been ok. But i didnt now how to approach the situation!
It wasnt ElusiveMark :) Good guess :P The person said he haid set too.
April 13, 2014 | 7:14 a.m.
thanks for the reply, I kinda agree with you that we should fold to a shove when we are 4betting or vice verca. But is that a standard line or is there some spots where its correct to fold? at the time I 4bet for value but when he shoved I figured I must be behind.
April 9, 2014 | 8:21 p.m.
CO: $636.62 (Hero)
UTG folds, HJ raises to $12.65, Hero calls $12.65, BN folds, SB folds, BB folds
April 7, 2014 | 11:01 a.m.
March 27, 2014 | 12:43 a.m.
I fully agree with you BigFiszh! You are criticizing part of the book/quotes/GT and this should not be generalised by others. If I discuss one hand you played then Im not really talking about your hole game. Same thing applies here! Stick to the point boys and girls :)