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April 2022 - End of month update

Hello everyone,

Here we’re about full honesty and transparence, even during rough patches. So here are the results for April.

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To these numbers, you can add (or should I say subtract) about 4,5k of live losses, and about 1,5k on GG. That should bring us to around -14k total.
I finally had my first 35BI downer of the year !
But that’s OK. It’s only numbers, small samples, and from yesterday I’m now back to full online mode, with the goal to improve as much as I can and get back on track.

I’m not very happy about how I played recently, both live and online. However I’m happy with how I handled the swings. I keep on remembering that I reached a point where it’s OK for me to drop 10k in a day. Sure it’s slowing me down, but it’s not crushing my life and soul.

Sun is shining, good times are ahead, now it’s time to show them what we’re made of !

Take care my friends.

May 2, 2022 | 2:34 p.m.

Hey friends, a quick update from Spain.

My one-week trip turned into a three-week trip, after catching Covid the first week (most likely) in the casino. I had almost no symptoms but decided to do a test just in case. So I extended my stay twice and rented an apartment on my own, waiting for this thing to leave my body. This morning I tested negative again, so I'll be heading home on Friday.

Besides that, the ESPT was a lot of fun overall. I played the Main Event (for fun), managed to run good and almost made a very nice score, busting 17th out of 784 on Day 3.
The cash games were also pretty sweet, even if I didn't run well. We mostly played very deep 10/20 games in the "private room" of the casino, felt like a big VIP whale haha,

Since then, I haven't played much online because grinding long hours on the laptop is not very pleasant, and I can only access Winamax from here, but still managed to score a bit over 10k hands,
It's a good exercise after all, I'm trying to play four tables only, the best I can, and do more study as well. Even took a RIO Elite sub for the first time ever :)

Hope everyone is doing well, see you soon at the tables !

April 11, 2022 | 11:27 a.m.

March 2022 - End of month update

Hello my friends !
The online grind is over for me this month, tomorrow I’ll be heading for Madrid for Pokerstars' ESPT festival and finally play some (hopefully good) live games again !

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Another good month so far, but I’m sure I have enough of one week to punt everything at 10/20 live haha.
It will be nice to catch a break and leave the island for a few days.

Actually, just knowing that I would go significantly improved my mood recently (that, along with the announcements of two upcoming festivals in Malta next month).
It means novelty, change, going out, seeing people, networking, all these things I love to do and that I was eager to find again in poker. But I guess I already mentioned that !

Anyway, reach out and say hello if you’re in Madrid this week !

Take care.

March 27, 2022 | 4:44 p.m.

Meliodas
Hey bro, OK I think I get it.
Just wanted to add that this "vision" I have doesn't bring me suffering or frustration (at least not anymore).
Just thought it'd be interesting to share some ideas here, and I don't have any issue with people not embracing the same mindset ;)

March 3, 2022 | 11:57 a.m.

Discomfort Thanks ! I'm playing mainly Pokerstars (EU and FR), and a bit of Winamax.

March 2, 2022 | 6:13 p.m.

February 2022 - End of month update

And... the shortest month of the year is over (although it didn’t feel that short).
Everything is going well so far, another good month in the books !

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What’s funny is my run at 500nl on Stars.Fr, which is usually the stake where I had one of my highest WR. It especially concerns a couple of regs I play all the time that are experiencing the most god-like run against me, maybe they’ll recognize themselves haha.
Otherwise I (again) played a bit too much for my standards, and didn’t take enough time to study off the tables. I need to correct that as this is what renews my enjoyment, learning new strategies and trying to apply them.

Otherwise I’m getting a bit tired of the winter, as always around that time of the year. However I’m really happy to see that most major events are coming back this year ; we’ll have two small festivals in Malta in the second half of April, as well as others in Europe, so I’m currently trying to see which ones I’ll be able to attend and find other players to share accommodations.
I miss traveling and live poker a lot, and the beauty of our lifestyle is that it allows us to combine business and pleasure this way !
That’s what I loved about music too, and certainly what also motivated me almost five years ago now to try to become a full time poker player.

Hope you guys are all doing well, and maybe meet some of you IRL this year.

Speak soon.

March 2, 2022 | 12:53 p.m.

Meliodas
Hey thanks man, all the best to you as well !
You're right about the fact that most poker players only see the money, that's partly why I thought that sharing these questions could be interesting.
What do you mean by "another Don Quixote" ? That I sound delusional in my vision of poker ? Too idealistic ?

Feb. 22, 2022 | 3:34 p.m.

The « Bodoggate », or when the source dries up.

Some of you might have heard about the recent wave of bans occurring on Bodog/Ignition accounts. I don’t know the exact reasons for this « clean up », but apparently these two sites decided to enforce the rules and froze a large number of « illegal » accounts, meaning players playing from restricted countries under a different name for example, or using VPNs etc.
Many players I know have now a large part of their bankroll locked, and while it's unlikely they confiscate the funds, at the moment they’re in the dark.

Even in unpleasant events like this, I believe there is something to learn.
Many of us are ready to compromise safety for game quality. Wel’ll be ready to play on borderline shady sites or apps and/or get around regulations by using VPNs or aliases to get more fish at our tables.
Without even judging if this « ethically acceptable » for you, my question is : are you ready to take the gamble ? Is it worth it ?

I know that it can be frustrating to live in a country where you don’t have access to the sites you want ; I felt the same when I was in France. You’re locked in a small pool, have very few sites to play on, pay higher rake, often get worse promotions / rakeback, while countless regs from many other countries are (for some reason) free to register on your restricted network and feast on the local weak players.
But is it worth it to be getting around the laws and risking to lose your funds and everything you've worked for ?

While I don’t think it is fair that sites wake up some day and decide to freeze suspicious accounts after not caring for years, I also think these kinds of practices just shouldn’t be available in the first place.

There is another point I’d like to bring to the table, which might be a bit controversial. Where is the value for us aspiring professionals or professional players ?
It is of course, as everyone likes to remind us, in selecting good games to play in. Certainly, if you’re the 6th best player in the world and always sit along the top 5, you’ll be losing in the game.
However, what if you’re in the top 100, and sit among complete beginners or top 1000 only ? Are you going to progress ? Are you going to be incentivized to get better and rise through the ranks to reach the top 5 ? How will you even know if you’re getting better if the competition is so low ?
I believe the true value for us passionate players is to invest in our abilities.
At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter how much you made this month or this year if you’re unable to repeat the effort in the future. The only guarantee of you being able to consistently win at poker in the long run is becoming the best possible player.

If you’ve been playing for a very long time exclusively on very soft unknown sites, and someday you’re forced to switch to z500 on Stars for instance, you’re in for a rude awakening.

Good day friends, and feel free to share your thoughts on this rant.

Feb. 22, 2022 | 2:27 p.m.

Hey man,
First, I think that if it was that easy, everyone would be playing 5/10 ;)
Most courses online (even the very good ones) often stay on the surface, and never really give you the "insider's tips", because they don't really have any incentive to do so.
You'll often hear things like "if you have reasons to believe your opponent will overfold/call here, then do this....".
Then the community is really important. If I just sent you a bunch of lines to apply in certain situations and tell you to stick to them, you'll probably try for a while and then start deviating when you hit the first small downswing simply because you don't have enough proofs that these strats work. We like to doubt everything and seek exceptions everywhere. The only way to counter our tendencies is to constantly see the results of other players in your group that take the same path and succeed.
And of course, the support of these same players to help you with your doubts and technical misunderstandings.

Feb. 1, 2022 | 12:04 p.m.

January 2022 - End of month update

Hello friends !

We're back for the first monthly update of this new year.
I am now fully on my own after finishing my contract with Poker Detox on the 3rd of January, so this one is a bit special for me.
Of course, right after I got off stake, I experienced a nice 20 BI downswing haha. But not complaining, as I ran very well the rest of the month and even managed to book what I think is my best month ever in online CG.

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So starting the year on a nice heater for sure. As you can see I mixed up quite a lot of 200nl this month for bankroll reasons, but got lucky enough to run very well at 500nl and 1Knl, so hopefully my 200nl days are gone for good. ;)

I now have a decent bankroll to play 500 as my main game by myself, and I'll keep on taking shots at 1k when the tables are good. Obviously I have to be a bit more conservative now BRM-wise, but I still intend to stay on the aggro side of things as the goal is moving back higher quickly.

Regarding level of play, I'm not extremely happy with myself, my redline is dropping a bit and I've probably been too passive many times. I'll work on that.

Life-wise, we took a few days off in Madrid this month with some of our best friends and had a great time. The plan is to try to do more of these little escapades, like a few days every two months or so. I feel like this way more beneficial for the mindset than taking several weeks in a row once a year (and you come back to poker with a refreshed mind without having forgotten how to play !).
Still haven't gotten back to the language learning or music, but it's in the plans (just like answering you RoleTide, sorry for the delay).

Anyway life is good, I hope you guys are enjoying this time of the year as well ! Speak soon.

Jan. 31, 2022 | 1:01 p.m.

Hey man, no worries that's a completely legit question.

First of all, as you mentioned a CFP is not only about staking, otherwise it's only a staking agreement, and you can definitely find one cheaper than that ;)
Second, you can also opt in for a CFP without being staked, which will get you a far better deal money-wise.

As for the "is it worth it" question, my answer is pretty straightforward : I certainly wouldn't have been able to reach nl1k by myself in 2021 without it. So the math of playing 200 unstaked or 500 on stake isn't really relevant IMO. It is always better to play as high as you can, because skill gained is not something you can lose like the money you put on the table. The experience is far more valuable than the amount in Euros.

As for how I felt, I don't see a big difference now that I play on my own from when I played on staked ; I still see the money on my accounts as my "player credits" as I did back then. Sure the amount is a lot smaller, but I'm still able to play 500nl and it's just fine by me. I wasn't going degen mode when I was on stake, because the money (or at least part of it) was still my "salary" anyway. So I had no incentive to go nuts and potentially lose it all in one night.
Conversely, now I have no reason to be too nitty either, because I'd just waste potential gains by playing too low.

For us in poker, money is just a means to an end. It is the tool of the trade, not the absolute goal. What will always be more important than the amount on your account is the skills you've worked for and the experience you're gathered. Just like in any other domain, those are what make a valuable actor out of you, or don't.

Those are my two cents ;)

Jan. 15, 2022 | 12:36 a.m.

Comment | Cyd commented on Hard Work Pays Off

LFG man !

Jan. 3, 2022 | 12:41 p.m.

GocceGocce Thanks my man ! Best of luck to you too.

Jan. 3, 2022 | 12:39 p.m.

2021 Yearly Results and goals for 2022

Alright, here’s the big report !

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You may not see anything impressive about these results, and there isn’t really in a vacuum ; however this year has certainly been the most important of my starting career as a poker player.
I started as a 100NL player taking febrile shots at 200NL and ended it as a confident 1klNL player taking shots at 2kNL. Certainly more than I expected.
Overall, I am especially proud of what I managed to achieve at high stakes so far.

After three years of struggling and mostly breaking even, I am now confident I can make a living from this game and compete at a high level. I at least 10x'ed my poker knowledge this year, thanks to Poker Detox, all the work I’ve done, and of course all the great players I’ve met or kept in touch with throughout this journey.
And I certainly do not intend to stop there and get lazy, but instead keep on improving and compete with the best in the world.

So, the poker goal this year will be to take shots at 5kNL before the end of 2022. This will be extremely challenging for many reasons.
First, the gap is obviously huge between 1k and 5k, and some missed shots could potentially ruin the entire year’s efforts. And 10/20 games are not very easy to find, as few sites include this stake and tables are rarely running.
Second, the more we try to move towards excellence, the more work it requires to gain only small edges. I will have to work a lot harder and understand the game at a much deeper level to go from 1k to 5k compared to what I needed to do to go from 100NL to 500NL.
And lastly, my contract with Poker Detox will be over in a few days, meaning I will have to send most of my bankroll (staking money) back to them. I will be left with very little money to play the stakes I’m playing now, and will probably have to start the year back at 500NL or maybe even lower, I’m not sure. Or maybe I’ll try to find a bit of staking.
Anyway I’ll have to stick to a very aggro BRM if I wanna move higher and reach my goals, so let’s hope things don’t go too bad for me in the upcoming months ;)

As for other life goals, I have a few things I’d like to add back to my life to diversify my activities outside of poker.
I’m thinking of getting back into music a bit. As a complete recreational of course. I might be taking some singing lessons again to get back on track and/or try to find some people to write songs with or just play for fun.
Also, I’ve been slacking on my language study these last months. I was practicing regularly for a long time and almost didn’t do anything since November.
I would like to reach at least a strong B2 level in Spanish and German (the latter will be way harder, not only because the language itself is a lot more difficult for me, but also because I’m almost starting from scratch). That will involve doing more than just working with an app like I did so far, and finding some native speakers to chat with and improve actively.
Regarding sports, I’ve been working with a company called RPS for two months now, and it’s been really motivating. The programs are evolving, shaped to my goals and performances, and the follow-up is really pro. I’ve just switched to a 5-day/week schedule, which is really challenging but I wanna give it a shot and stick to that for a while.

That’s pretty much it for now. I don’t have anything drastic to change or incorporate, as I strongly believe these resolutions never lead to anything. So we’ll keep on getting better step by step.

Again, I wish you all the best for this new year, and thank you so much for reading this blog.
Have a great one my friends !

Jan. 1, 2022 | 3:03 p.m.

December 2021 - End of month update

First of all, happy new year my friends ! May 2022 be filled with joy and success.

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I managed to finish the year pretty well, that’s always good for the mindset.

In addition to my usual sites, I also played 5/10 on GG Poker this month, played 30k hands there and dropped around 13 BIs (-7 after RB), helped by the most ridiculous run ever.
For several days now my account has been frozen for « verification », despite me providing a shit ton of documents… Let’s see how this works out.

Anyway, I’m happy I pushed myself and didn’t play anything below 500NL for the entire month, and kept on taking a few shots at 2kNL.

OK, I’ll be back in a moment with another post to reflect on the whole year and share the overall results.

Speak soon !

Jan. 1, 2022 | 1:35 p.m.

Haha yeah the last option isn't very fruitful for the future, and I've done my fair share of it too.
I also think it's important not to see things in a way that's too "binary". For me it's not about striving for perfection or even avoiding the eventual (and inevitable) "relapses" ; it's just that they get scarcer as we become more present.

Dec. 28, 2021 | 12:02 p.m.

…And I’m not worried about the destination, for the destination is the journey itself ; it’s an endless and beautiful improvement.

Again, something I like to remind myself on a daily basis. Little by little, it became engraved in my mind. I am now enjoying the process more than ever, and I am not haunted by unattainable goals or an unknown future anymore.

So much so, that only very recently I realized that the « poker goal » I set for myself at the beginning of this year was reached : I am now playing 5/10 consistently and comfortably. I feel fine playing these stakes, and know that I’m now good enough to sit there. Of course, I’m also aware that I’m far from being the best and that I often share the tables with top players that have 10x my experience. But that’s amazing in itself ; I’m starting to play among some of the best online players in the world, something I could have only dreamed of a while ago, and I don’t even feel that outmatched. Their skills seem attainable now. I’m seeing through the mirage of « they’re just lightyears ahead of me ».

Just like our ranges, our minds need balance. Balance between past, present and future.
As someone who hated being a child, for my whole life I was heavily unbalanced towards the future. When you’re trapped in the future, you expect tomorrow to be better because you’ll be older, or smarter, or richer, and you constantly unconsciously acknowledge that today is not good enough or even meaningless. You never enjoy the present and often don’t look into the past to correct your eventual mistakes and improve.
For some it’s the opposite, they’re trapped in the past and can’t build the future because of that ; it just brings out too much anxiety and fear.

By working on this for two years now, I’ve managed to restore a healthy balance in my mind. I now live in the present most of my waking time.
That of course doesn’t mean we can’t build projects, set reasonable goals for ourselves, construct a profile for our future self, etc. We simply understand that everything is being created in the present, and not in the future.

So my next post will be including the whole 2021’s results, and I’ll try to set goals for 2022. Again, reaching them or not is not that important. It just feels nice to have a target and to aim for it.

Take care my friends, and see you at the end of this week.

Dec. 27, 2021 | 11:46 a.m.

Thanks my man FlorinCJK
Feeling sorry for ourselves never made us better human beings ;)
I guess it is healthy acknowledging you're (sometimes) not good enough but taking this as a chance to grow. Sorry if that sounds lame, that's all I got today !

Dec. 1, 2021 | 2:28 p.m.

November 2021 - End of month update

Hello my friends, time for the monthly update.

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For the second month in a row, I’m a rake back pro !
Poor month results-wise again, ran poorly and above all lost almost all of my big hands vs fish, where all the highest EV comes from.
But you should know by now that blaming it all on variance is not how we do it over here.
I’ve been prioritizing volume over quality, mixing too many stakes, and at times playing too many tables. Add to that a bunch of blunders and reg battling a bit too much, and you get the « rake back pro graph ».

The good part is that I’m trying to learn my lesson. I’ve bee spending some time looking at all my performances this year, and will make the appropriate adjustments. That was the goal for this year after all. I am not a HS crusher yet, far from it, and I know I have to work like crazy to become one. However I feel fine firing 5/10 tables, and I don’t think I’m very far from being able to really beat the games at a decent rate. My sample at HS is still very small of course, but it’s in the making.

So this December will set the ground for a solid, professional new year. 2021 was just the warm up, the beginning of a great apprenticeship.

I wish you all a great month, and see you in four weeks for the yearly results and the plans for 2022 !

Nov. 30, 2021 | 1:08 p.m.

…Day after day, I become a better poker player, a better husband, a better man…

What’s up fellas ?

Just came back from two weeks of great holidays in the south part of France. Had an amazing time and seen many beautiful places we hadn’t seen before.
We also had the extreme pleasure to celebrate the wedding of some of our closest friends (that part was emotional !) ; another reminder that some friendships can survive distance and time, and how lucky we are to know such amazing people.

And we obviously enjoyed as much as we could the gastronomy our old country has to offer (alright, that was my priority, I confess).

I don’t like pictures too much, and never think of taking some, so this is pretty much all I have for two weeks ! Nothing amazing, I know.

Anyway I’m back in the game, eager to learn and to play !
It also feels good in a way to be back to my routines. As much as I like to travel, it’s of course very challenging to keep good habits when away from home, at least for me. For instance, I almost skipped my meditations entirely for two weeks.
But that doesn’t matter at all.
First because habits, just like poker, are long-term goals, not quick fixes. And second, because the effects are now deeply ingrained in me, after more than one and half year of meditating every day.
Just like you don’t lose all your muscles when you stop working out for a week or two, you don’t lose all the benefits you gained from mental exercises either.

I realize I really did change for the better. And these few words / phrases I’ve been using as « titles » for these short posts and that I’ve been repeating to myself every single day, are sounding truer and truer as time passes.

Leave the quick fixes, the fast glory or the constant search for the easiest dopamine hit to the others, my friends. We aim for greater goals !

The faster they rise, the harder they fall.

PS : Don't ask me why I look orange on the picture, I have no idea.

Nov. 9, 2021 | 4:50 p.m.

October 2021 - End of month update

Hello my friends.

I am ending the month early , as I'm leaving tonight for two weeks of vacation abroad !

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So short month and low volume again (but overall fine as it's only 2/3rd of the month). I promise I'll come back to my 50kh/month average this winter.

Results are poor, but I confess I deserve them in a way, many days this month were complete blunder festivals. I was very often unable to manage unknown spots, and also butchered many that I should've known.

I'm not good enough yet. But hey, so what ? When you have high expectations for yourself, you're often disappointed, but it also keeps you moving forward.

Now, time for a break ! I'll come back strong in November and this winter will be mine !

Oct. 21, 2021 | 12:35 p.m.

Hey man,
I wouldn't say drastically, but I'm trying to play much closer to theory and added "complexity" yes. So it naturally leads to having more check-folds in some spots, therefore bringing the redline to a more "natural" trend.
Add to this certainly a few bluff spots missed and some run good at showdown, and you have the graph of this month !

Oct. 2, 2021 | 12:07 p.m.

September 2021 - End of month update

Hello friends !

We've been running pretty good online this month, and we ain't gonna feel bad about it.

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A sexy run for a low volume month. We had friends visiting us the first ten days of September, and this last week I was in Barcelona to play some live games, so I ended up playing around half of my usual volume online.
But don't worry, I don't run good everywhere : I dropped around 6k at 5/10 live this week, despite the games being pretty nice.

Game-wise, I feel like all the new strategies I incorporated in my game in August are being digested. I feel confident and in control (which is of course easier when you're winning), even at 5/10.
But that doesn't mean we'll be getting lazy on the study.
There are still three months left in 2021, and I wanna make sure I start 2022 as strong as I can.
This is only the take off, not cruising speed.

Speak soon.

Oct. 1, 2021 | 3:38 p.m.

August 2021 - End of month update

Hello dear friends,

This guy is back on track, and ready to roll.

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I am half joking of course, and results are not that great yet (far from recovering from all the shit I went through this year), but that's not the point.
As I believe I've said before, I've been taking the first two weeks of August to work only on theory and I made a ton of upgrades to my game. It really brought me back on track, brought the passion back, and I'm now having more fun than ever at the tables.
My mind is more stimulated, I'm thinking more deeply into each spot and I'm "autopiloting" way less often. I just feel like I understand most nodes of the decision tree way better now, even if I'm still making a ton of punts and am lost more often than not.

To summarize, this was a transition period way needed in any growth. It was hard, very hard to get back on track and shut the demons in my head that have been haunting me forever. But I've won another battle. Certainly not the war, as the war will probably last for as long as I'll be on this earth ; but as cliché as it sounds, I'm happy that I'm never giving up without a fight.

I hope you guys are doing great and enjoying your last summer days.
I'm not gonna let my guard down and try to correct all the stupid shit I did this month, still aiming for the world-class level poker I'm dreaming of.

Take care.

Aug. 31, 2021 | 8:53 p.m.

Don't believe the hype, my friends : poker is alive and well.
See you soon for the August update ;)

Aug. 29, 2021 | 3:22 p.m.

Thanks man. Just gotta keep improving ;)
Played very little this month, but studied a lot, and the confidence is coming back, along with the thirst to play. Seems like a world of possibilities is opening !

Aug. 15, 2021 | 9:12 a.m.

Hey blomzy, thanks for the kind words !
Regarding BRM, I might not be the best person to ask for advice haha.
I'll always be in favour of taking aggressive shots. Something like 25-30 BIs feels confortable to me. However you must be humble and move back down if it goes wrong.

Aug. 11, 2021 | 11:45 a.m.

July 2021 - End of month update

Hello again my friends.
It's been a while, and I am late for the July update. I was in a very bad "spot" these last days/weeks, and I didn't want to write these words from this bad mental place.
So here are the results :

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Another difficult month in the books. 2021 was very generous with me in the beginning, but it seems that now the b.... won't let me breathe !
Anyway, after two more terrible days early this month, I decided to take a small break from the tables.
I've been flirting with depression for a couple of months (an old friend of mine, who always had a sense for timing), and although poker is probably not the root of it all, these disastrous months I've been experiencing didn't help.
I was starting to "fail" repeatedly on my routines, my schedules ; my motivation crashed the ground numerous times, inversely proportional to my drinking.

I haven't played now for five days, trying to take time for myself, resting, eating...
I've also started working deeper on theory, things I've been wanting to do for a while, but cannot start on the days when I'm playing, at the risk of just ruining my poor cerebral capacities before even starting my day.
Hopefully this is slowly starting to bring the passion back, bringing me back to the shore.

Enjoy your summer guys !

Aug. 7, 2021 | 6:44 p.m.

June 2021 - End of month update

OK friends, here's to the first half of 2021 !

We have a saying in French that goes like : "Happy in gambling, unhappy in romance" ("heureux au jeu, malheureux en amour") ; a sort of joke reminding us we can't be lucky in every zone of our lives.
Well right now I'm going the opposite direction ;)

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We got blessed by a dream-like week in Paris at the beginning of the month ; everything was perfect : beautiful weather, lovely restaurants, and an unforgettable wedding week-end surrounded by the most amazing friends.
So I don't regret consuming all my luck there and accept this new 60 BI downswing as it is !

Again, a reminder that we should never take anything for granted in poker (and life), and that we'll always tend to underestimate variance.

So now, I'm back in the nl200 streets for a little while. Hopefully not for too long. Overall I'm pretty confident with the upgrades I'm slowly making to my game, even if it's of course very easy to doubt a lot when you lose that much. I got back to a decent routine (even if it's far from perfect), and I also accept the fact that with the summer it's getting a lot harder for me to be consistent right now, and that I'm gonna miss the target pretty often.
But that's alright. I'm not going to be too harsh on myself, but just try to take it easy and slowly get back on track, with the goal to take shots again at 1k before the end of the summer.
I got three months left in my Poker Detox contract, and I intend to make them count (and here I'm not talking about results, but networking and making improvements, strategical upgrades etc).

I hope you guys are all enjoying the summer, and that life is treating you well !
Speak soon.

July 1, 2021 | 12:12 a.m.

May 2021 - End of month update

Howdy y’all !
Damn this is already my fifth monthly update !

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Stakes breakdown

Someone ate all my EV this month !
But that’s alright, no bitterness ; we’re not even half-way through the year yet, and I’m already playing 1k, which is way sooner than I expected !

Tbh I didn’t notice any major difference in level yet - nothing to do with the huge gap between 200 & 500.
Yes the games are tough on Stars of course, but I don’t feel « outmatched » anymore (like I did when I first took shots at 500) ; I just need a little bit of time to overcome the classic resistances we face when we start playing a higher stake : fear of loss / risk aversion and this tendency we all have to give too much credit to the regulars.

So the goals for the month of June are :
* No more nl200 ! F*ck the comfort zone.
* Continue to take aggressive shots at 1k until I really stick the landing.
* As this Covid pressure is finally easing up a bit, it’s time to go back to the gym ! Not that I’m really happy about it, but that’s how it is haha.

But for now… HOLYDAYS !
We’re flying to Paris tomorrow morning (or should I say tonight !) for a full no-poker week, which probably never happened to me in more than three years now.
Gonna finally eat in good restaurants, wander through my city of light I love and hate so much, see our friends we didn’t see in more than two years, and… casually get married as well ;)

Talk later friends, I got a suitcase to pack !

May 30, 2021 | 11:31 a.m.

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