That Fridge thing is totally me ;)
But I Also suffer from a thyroid desease which makes losing weight even harder .
Meditation helps me a lot to stay focus . I have started 1 Year ago with a simple pre game Video by Elliot Roe
Jan. 25, 2021 | 4 p.m.
To study or not to study ….. that is the question
Maybe it’s only me but i have and always had the feeling in the past that i put too much time into study and less in playing / executing.
One simple Example :
I check (like the last 2 weeks) twice a year the explopits I found and if they still do exist . This takes about 3 weeks of Solving , aggregating just to come to the conclusion that the Microstakes Pools dont get better . I checked this for the last 3 years . So all in all i wasted 6 Weeks every year in which i could perform and put my results into practice.
I am not sure if i do this because I want to avoid losing / Variance or if I am in general more interested in theory work.
But at this point it doesn’t matter because I have made the decision to apply for the a Stable, preferred PD followed by BrPC.
A friend of mine will do the same at the end oft he year when his education is finihsed . I got in contact with Nick 5 years ago when I wanted to apply for the first time but decided for stupid reasons like I am too old , I dont want to play on Apps or similar ones not do so.
Now I am even older ;) but decided that this is an opportunity i can not let pass.
I am actually not at the required stakes but will do everything to get to at least NL50 Winning till autumn of this year.
My other Goals went so so :
I managed to meditate more which is good. Get in 4 Sessions per week now
I am still not able to lose weight ;)
I put in a lot of studying hours in the last 2 weeks and played about 12 hours per week on Top oft hat.
Jan. 25, 2021 | 12:35 p.m.
So nearly two weeks since my last post . Time for an Update.
I finsihed the Mental Game of Poker and worked really hard on my mindset. It gets better sand better in the last days and I deal with losing Session way better than in the past.
I failed at meditating and could only put it two sessions per week. Losing weight works also suboptimal :D I haven't weight myself yet but it feels like i didn't lose one single gramm :D
What worked really well was my goal playing / stuying more . I played 16 hours per week and put in another 9 hours of Study (excluding the 7-8 hours I solve overnight).
So all in all room for improvement
Jan. 12, 2021 | 6:24 p.m.
Achievements in the past week
1. I read through the Mental Game of Poker. I found out that I don’t have a single mental Issues but a couple of them on different layers. Actually I follow Tendlers advices and write a Mental Journal for my own where I judge every Session based on the mental State I was on and how I feel while playing the session.
2. I established doing meditation for at least 3-4 times a week
3. I left Stars because the hate me :D (just kidding but I found a better alternative for me)
4. I went through a lot of Content which I purchased on Black Friday Deal which is really helpful and opens a totally new view on my game. (I have done a lot wrong in the past).
The Volume Dilemma
In my last Post I wrote that playing Reg Tables ha to be the way to go for me because I am simply too old to handle those fast tables. Playing around with a Poker Variance Calculator I recognized once again how brutal Variance can be and even for a decent Winner over 100k or even 200k Hands nearly everything from losing to winning big is possible.
So what does that mean for me?
Should I get used to Fast Tables and force me to play those?
I don’t think so but I should be aware that given my low Volume I have to be prepared for long BE or losing stretches in the short run.
And because it’s the last day of the year here are my goals for the next year:
- Still work on my mental Game and try to get better at handle Variance, handling mistakes
- Putting in at least 15 hours of poker besides my 9-to-5 Job of playing / studying
- Lose weight because 119 Kg for a old men of 192 cm is simply too much. I want to have two digits at the end of the year
- Posting a graph every 50k Hands. Not that 50k hands sample means anything but I had to put a number
I wish everyone a happy new year and stay safe
Dec. 31, 2020 | 9:35 a.m.
Sorry no Graph this week simply because I haven’t played a hand
a) Working smart
I was busy this week doing a lot of off table work.
I solved 3-Bet Pots Subsets and compared those with my Pools. There are a lot of Exploits I found in addition to what I was aware off up till now.
And because I found so much additional Exploits I decided to continue doing the same stuff for SRP this week.
I don’t feel the urgency to put in a lot of Volume anymore after reading Pete Clarke’s book and watching some oft he latest PD Stuff on instagram . So I decided to use my Holiday till next year to be well prepared technically and mentally for my next attmept to move up in Limits in 2021.
I also start reading Tendler’s Mental Game now which is also a really good read. Meditation went well. I established a routine which i follow at least 3 times a week.
Overall I am quite happy with the direction that leads to.
I made the decision that Fast Tables are not the best option form me as an old dude playing a young guns game ;) So I will start playing Reg Tables in 2021.
Some weird thoughts about Habits….
I thought that given my Childhood and the consequences I might be the best fit for simply exexcuting a strategy XY.
During my whole life I enjoyed having well established structures and following strictly roules . Once I proved that for me something works well I can do this over and over again without looking left or right . This might be bad in most parts of life but could be very good in Poker I assume . i.e it is very hard to convince me from a different opinion when I think I am right.
So it should be quite easy when I am finished with my off table work against different Player Profile to just execute this to death . Simply because I know through big enough Simple Size that it works and I won’t question things that work ;)
So that might be a weird benefit of my „un-educaiton“
Merry Christmas Guys and good luck at the tables for those who play
Dec. 21, 2020 | 11:59 a.m.
Sorry for the late reply .
Here are the reuslts for the last 2 weeks.
Stars doesnt love me ;)
I got a new computer on Monday and was busy installing the software the whole week.
lIlCitanul Thx a lot for the hint to Pete Clarke's Book. Awesome read . Read it once this week and will read it at least a second time going all over my Misfires (I think I have a combination of some of them mentioned in the book).
I am Planning to make notes trying to establish a process of rewiring and go on from there.
I will also concentrate more on my mental Leaks than on Studying in the near future because i think unless they are not solved or at least improved i am going nowwhere in poker.
The Plan is trying to judge every session i play on how well i felt during the session . This won't be related to any outcome but to the mental state i was in.
I decided to start doing something outside of poker (and work) . Maybe that helps me gaining confidence in other aspects of life and transition those to poker . I played games like dirt and project Cars which i will start doing again .
stay tuned for the next update
Dec. 13, 2020 | 1:14 p.m.
After lilCitanul Post I thought about what causes my tilt. Going deeply after this i think the root Cause for this was built in my childhood. As I already mentioned I had a rough time as a child . I was facing to much emotional and physical pain . So if the two people that should love you and treat you well by nature are doing the total opposite that does something to your self confidence. Whenever I succeed in anything it was quite normal and i didn't get any "well done" and when i failed i felt the disappointment.
So up till today as a grown-up old man I could not handle compliments in any part of my life very lwell because i didn't get used to it
At the end I came to the conclusion that I fear to fail in Poker because thats the only thing I proved to myselff being good at . And if I fail at Poker what else do i have left ... pretty much nohting.
Sad but honest truth I believe.
The question now is how to work on this ? Being more proud of my lifetime achievements and seeing Poker as only one of the things I am good at (there seem to be more like my sister and 2 close friends try to convince me).
Haven't come to a conclusion yet but will try to think about it . I would also appreciate other advices or opinions on that .
Dec. 1, 2020 | 8:01 p.m.
summarizing my week:
I played around with Pokerdope which helps a little bit .. Recognizing that I am well roled for my Limit and if I am able to move down which i always was there is close to zero chance i go broke.
I also saw the latest video of the Poker Ambition crew introducing thewakko. This was really interesting for me beacuse he went over his career being staked several times and going broke even one time . He went over this so easily that I thought by myself well why isnt it a problem for him but for me ?
Reflecting this thought I came to the conclusion that i fear to fail in Poker . It would be a disaster to tell myself you didnt make it . It's not that I am as competitive but I think I should be rewarded for the time I out into Poker which was a lot up till now .
Strange about tthis is that I already made five figures which is more than most of the Players will do because there are not much winning Players in this game . I know all of this and I should be proud to be one of the guys who made at least some money over the last years. But in Poker as genral in life i have Issues being proud of an achievement. This has to do for sure with my education where i got close to zero support emotionally from my parents .
Poker wise I made the decision last night to invest in a yearly Membership of the BTS Lab+. I will also start one tabling recording myself and explaining my thought process. This helped me a lot in the past .
I will give meditation another chance. Maybe it helps me getting more calm taking more pressure from myself.
The weekly Graph will be posted on Monray.
Nov. 28, 2020 | 7:45 a.m.
my name is dirk , I am 50 years old and I am a fish.
I think it is very important to be clear about the status quo just to hopefully see somewhere in the future where we came from and how much we improved.
So what kind of fish am I ?
Weak passive fish , volatile , nit fish ?
Well none of those , it even worse ... I am a Mindset fish.
The Problem is that as a Mindset fish i dont have one specific leak in skill like being too passiuve , too aggressive . I would say that I have a somewhat decent theory knowledge which most of the guys / studypatners
I have or had will confirm . I also have a good work ethic I think at least if you consider that I am only a part time grionder with a normal 9-to-5 job.
So what is it that I am leaking ?
Well first of all i have really big issues with Variance
Although I have a strong mathematical background and i understand Variance in principle it doesnt internalizes. This leads to me not handling variance very well
when i drop 4 Buy Ins in a session. This is even more ridiculous if you know my BRM(100 BI+)
I am acutally playing NL25 struggeling to take shots at NL50.
The second leak I found out so far is that I am not executing what I know.
Although I have made a lot of Pool Analyze and i know in which lines vs which Betsizes my Opponents are exploitable I find in game a lot of excuses to differ from my findings.
When it comes to bluff catching it's even worse .
Interestingly I have no issues revieweing hands of me or my friends and come up with pretty good solutions because it's either not my hand or i have the necessary distance to make the right decision.
So why this blog ?
Maybe some of you have the same Problem and we could create a discussion / share thoughts about our problem and try to solve it .
What you can expect here in the future ?
Well I will give an overview on a weekly basis about the state of my mind and will judge my Play on a weekly basis. I try to be as hnoest as I could in this self Analysis
I will also share a monthly graph because everybody likes Graphs / Results .
Other than that I will try to find different angles to come up to a solution for my Problem
So stay tuned for my next post...
Nov. 23, 2020 | 7:21 p.m.
It's Mass Data Analyse and it describes finding Leaks in Pool Tendencies for different Player Profiles based on huge Samples
And Yes I give a shit about balance because I know a lot of exploits through MDA
June 27, 2020 | 6:02 p.m.
I recently moved up to NL50 (playing on GGPoker and Ipoker ) and I am looking for a study Partner / group.
What I dont want:
- Studying an PIO based Approach
- looking for GTO Solutions on specific hands
What I am looking for
- Players who play NL25+
- Who study based on MDA
- ideally using a Nick Howard approach
- on top familar with H2N Range Research studyding Pool Analysis would be nice
If you have such a group either on Discord , Slack , Skype or anywhere else and are looking for a guiy experiencd in the above mentioned points. just hit me up.
Thanks in advance
June 27, 2020 | 11:14 a.m.
radiosick great Blog, love it
I assume that you use H2N to analyze Population tendencies because it is way better for this kind of work than PT4 or HM2.
But it seems from your posts than you use PT4 or HM2 in game . Is there a reason why you dont use H2N also in game ? missing Hand Converters or the marking system of H2N ?
Oct. 3, 2019 | 11:04 a.m.
Third Week at NL5Z I had a rough start ;)
pretty unfortunate Runouts which leads to no Showdown Winnings and in Addition to that we run below EV.
I also fall into the trap of adjusting my game too early after not running "at my expactation" . A mistake I made in the past and I thought I had solved it. Seems that Poker is a Project you have to work on in all areas for a lifetime.
But nevertheless it's still a lot of Fun to Stream (although winning would be better ;) )
Hopefully we can make the turnaround thsi week
Aug. 21, 2019 | 2:49 p.m.
Done with NL2Z ;)
After about 20k Hands , one Chest and 1k Stars Points we have beaten NL2Z for about 9.xx bb/100 EV.
Today's Stream will be 1 hour play and after that I will give my opinion on the pool and what is necessary to beat NL2.
We will start on Wednesday with NL5.
Aug. 11, 2019 | 1:43 p.m.
Hi . 2nd week of streaming is over and I have to admit that it is way more fun than I thought .
Streaming NL2 makes even more fun than playing NL25 for my own .
Viewer numbers climb slow but steady which i really like and the reuslts on NL2 so far are also good.
Also commentaring my whole thought process in most hands help me to stay focussed and implement my strategy - I think it also prepares me to play and stay consistent at higher Limits but we hopefully will see that in the near future .
Aug. 5, 2019 | 5:42 p.m.
Inspired by OMGClayDurrland I decided to open a Blog .
I am a german Poker Player at he age of 49 playing NL.
Due to a recent lack of Motivation at my home Limit NL25 I also decided to start streaming on Twitch .
Just come on Board if you are interested
Because everybody likes competitiotns and a lot of players think that microstakes these days are unbeatable I decided to start at NL2Z.
I am playing 2 tablies NL2Z with a somewhat different style than most other player do ;)
Here are my Results of the first week
Will try to update here on a weekly basis
July 31, 2019 | 1:06 a.m.
GL to the old players ;)
not sure what you consider "old" . But I am in a similar situation with Job Netflix and some Poker and I am close to 49 ....anyway you are more courageous than me beause I am going back and forth about opening a Blog since 2 weeks and can not convince myself to do so
July 23, 2019 | 9:52 a.m.
- I would say 5 Mio is enough for most Preflop Situations
- I dont think you can get Zoom hands. But building Exploits for regular tables is close enough in my opinion
- I would look at all lines where villain has to defend his checking Range . Like XF, B-XF or similar and start at LP Game .
If you want to get a decent Sample for Turn and River Plays I would assume you need something between 20-40 Mio hands in a specific Line (on certain Boardtextures)
Feb. 5, 2019 | 3:42 p.m.
Folding TPTK with an SPR of 1 is not possible in my opoinion especially when a lot of the combos you are beaten by are blocked (44,JJ,AJ).
Not uncommon to the a merged raising Range here consisting of AQ and worse Ax given you bet the Flop for 1/3
Jan. 27, 2019 | 10:40 a.m.
I would also squeeze bigger . Something like 15-16 bb .
Flop Bet for 1/3 with your entire Range is ok . Turn Check on A is Standard because you dont poalrize enough to bet and you dont want to bet small .
River I dont understand the 1 bb Bet. I would check and hope he checkes behind and we win vs TT,JJ
Questions I would ask myself when being raised on the River :
Does the typical Regular (which I assume he is) raise enough as a Bluff here ?
If no do I dominate some Value of his Value Range ?
I would answer both Questions with with No for NL2 so I think fold is best.
Jan. 27, 2019 | 9:42 a.m.
Most improtant lesson I learned was on Microstakes the biggest part of my WR comes from recreational Player . Therefore Site/Table/Seat Selection is a crucial Skill most player underestimate and you have to play exploitiv Poker and getting really out of line vs those guys by using uncommon Betsizes and Lines.
March 5, 2018 | 10:43 a.m.
Some Questions about this :
Do you do this Analyse every 3k hands or every wwek, month ?
Is this anaylse done automaitcally ? Meaning you export some Data in CSV File and Excel does the rest ?
Or do you even have to check all 3k hands manually and mark the mistakes and create those beauty Excel Chart by your manually categorized data ? IF Yes , how long does it take to go over 3k hands nad mark the mistakes ?
Feb. 16, 2018 | 10:09 a.m.
Take away from the Quizzes
Main Take away: My Preflop Game is not that well thought out and reasonable as I thought
- I overvalue Wheel Aces over Axs with better Kicker in 3-Bet Range
- I call too liberally multiway underestimating the difference between Equity and realizable Equity in MW Pots especially OOP
After reading this:
For example, if either opponent is a recreational, it is likely that we get swayed to calling, or if both villains are regs and the BTN is an aggressive reg, then we are likely to be swayed to 4-bet
Work to do:
I will have to resolve my Ranges vs MDA Pool Ranges (and different Player Profiles) to look into details when good blocker with High cards have more EV in 3-Betting and 4-Betting on Flop Subsets. After that I will change mixed Strategies to pure Strategies based on the Player Profiles and develop a base Strategy based on the most occuring Profile in my Pool.
Feb. 10, 2018 | 9:26 p.m.
a Pokerfriend of mine switch to Pokermaster (Chiinese App) and were a BE NL50 on stars back then . He uses no exploit theories because he is not aware of any / dont want to put the time in .
He made over decent sample 23 bb/100 on NL150$.
So I think its quite possible with the right exploits / Coach
And before anyone asks : No I will post no graph :D
Feb. 9, 2018 | 11:43 p.m.
I will start doing some Research about 2 different Environments using H2N and have some questions.
- do you exclude Reg vs Fish Hands in H2N when mapping Lines ?
- when looking for frequencies at a certain Line like BB vs BTN in a triple barrel Spot vs 33,66,66 Betsize I have to filter for those Betsizes especially on the Flop because it's uncommon, right ?
- In PIO how many subsets do you use ?
- When I Solve the subsets in PIO do i solve my BTN Range vs BB Pool or BU Pool vs BB Pool defend ?
Thanks in advance to anybody who answers
Dec. 15, 2017 | 12:55 p.m.
Saw the Video just to know why Nick goes that out of line the first time . For me it's not the strategy talk about the hand (i don't even can judge if the hand was played good from both sides) but it's the presantation from Doug which is far off. All he said and how he presents his thought on Matt after 10:40 in the video is pretty much not necessary and disrepectful and just aims to get more clicks at least in my opinion.
Nov. 22, 2017 | 9:11 a.m.
Add the end it sums up to one thing :
We all try to set our Opponents in every single situation on a Range and suck hard at it . We do this because it was told to us from professionals over the last 10 years . And its hard and takes a lot of time to get out of the paradigm if it's rooted in you over such a long time .
I try to get out of it and after watching all of your youtube Videos for the 3rd time (yes all of them ;D ) i think I might be on the right path