Dec. 13, 2018 | 7:18 p.m.
Ok so I am having serious problems getting hands in, have only played 5-6k hands in dec so far. But when Im getting hands in Im playing very well and BR was up to 1100 before I withdrew 250 for coaching so I am having 850 right now.
I have seen some improvements in the way I am thinking at the tables since my session with Dekkers and after moving down to playing mostly 3 tables. I am picking of bluffs with the right combos, playing more aggressively and a lot more.
Bought David Goggins audiobook after seeing him on Joe Rogan, this guy is changing the way Im thinking, very inspirational.
Dec. 13, 2018 | 5 p.m.
Solid start to the journal. GL
Dec. 6, 2018 | 1:33 a.m.
Have had a few sessions on nl20 now and I am pretty confident that I will beat this level to. I just need to manage my BR carefully. I lost 2-3 buyins and moved down to nl10 to get it back and then moved up again. Now my roll is something like 900. Next week I will be able to get in much more hands since work is slowing down considerably.
I am also going to start coaching one of my friends that want to start playing again so that will def improve my skills a lot.
Watching a ton of vids and am finding some coaches to be really interesting to follow.
I still feel a bit put of to improve my game tbh, I find it much more important to get in hands and build my roll since Im beating the games and are more limited by my BR than my skills so that probably makes sense.
Allright, end of rant.
Dec. 5, 2018 | 8:32 p.m.
Played my first (short) session of 20nl today and won around 60 which was very nice and a good start on the new limit.
This month have been so much fun, I have gone from not realy knowing what to do with my pokercareer to taking the decision to focus on 6m NL and to get back to the limits that I once played. I have started to work with a coach, crushed 10NL for something like 20+bb/100 and played my first session at 20nl. I hope I can play a decent amount of poker in December and build my roll up to a bit over 1k and then start the new year looking upwards to 50nl.
50NL will probably be the first limit where I will focus on building a big BR for myself, until then I will just move up and try to establish myself asap without risking to much.
One thing that I have struggled with a lot in the past is BR management, not so much in poker, but in real life. It is quite ironic that I have spent so much time trying to find small edges in poker but flat out ignoring the lifeleaks that I had. I blew most of my money eating out, partying and on just pure lazyness. This time around I will get all my shit together and build as much stability as possible.
If you are reading this and have been or want to be a professional pokerplayer I want to give you an advice.
Save your money. Save it.
If enough things in your life falls together at the same time you might not be able to keep playing poker. And then you need to have savings, or like I had to do, take a crappy job that will suck your soul out of you. And if you think poker is hard, try waking up at crappy hours and spending most of your waking time with people that will do everything to bring you down (and since you have a huge gap in your resume you will not get to choose with job you take. So save your money. Save it.
Cook your own food, mend your own clothes, take the bike instead of the car, do whatever it takes to start saving until you have enough to relax again. This is what I will do from now on.
See you in December.
Nov. 30, 2018 | 4:05 p.m.
Ok I have been thinking a lot about what goals I schould set out for myself and I have come to the conclusion that I will make a Goals for 2019 later on in December instead. The rest of the year I will just try to get in as many hands as possible and build my BR.
So far in November I have played around 20k hands which is ok, I would prefer playing 30k+ but this month I have been working a lot so it have been quite difficult to find time when I have been rested and balanced enough to sit down and focus.
I decided to not look at results but felt after a week or two that I did not take the money seriously enough in game and thus I started to be sloppy with many things. Therefore I decided to give myself a little more pressure in the short-term and started to check my results after each session, this made me more motivated to show positive results and made it easier to play correctly.
I have been winning something along the lines of 25bb/100 which is kind of ridiculous obv. After my session with Dekkers I had a lot more confidence in general and I started to play fewer tables (3-4).
BR is now at 800 and I will start to play 20nl from next month, hopefully I can keep crushing there and begin next year with a positive direction.
Good things about working a lot is that I will not have to cash out anything untill maybe in the end of january, probably not even then. This is so huge when you play lowstakes since cashing out really get to you (at least me) mentaly and your hourly can be really low so making some money on the side is so nice. The key is to find a job that is not draining your analytic or mental energy and that you can relax a bit in, thus creating natural breaks from grinding (which you still need) and making money at the same time. I have the luxury of even having time to work a little on my pokergame during work, maybe 10-15% of my paid time can go towards poker.
Allright have to go now.
Nov. 28, 2018 | 9:35 a.m.
First session with Dekkers yesteday. He spotted a few things I could improve in right away and the sessions I have played after this has been very fun. I have gone down from playing 5 tables to playing max 4 and this is def much better for me. I have been to focused on getting in a lot of hands but I think this way I will move up in stakes much faster and also it will make me less stressed during sessions.
I have started to think about goals and I will make a detailed post about what my goals will be with regards to poker since I think it is one of the most important things to have a clear view on where I want to go.
Nov. 17, 2018 | 2:29 p.m.
A friend of mine practice ”one minute a day”. He cleans 1 min a day, works out 1 min a day, reads one min a day, etc.
If you have it in your mind that you only have to do it for one minute it is way easier to start an activity, and if you, after 1 min, want to do more, do more..
Nov. 16, 2018 | 5:45 a.m.
Soon 10k hands in and checked my winrate at 20bb/100. Good start and I focus mostly on getting as much time playing as I can.
Ill probably move up to 20nl as soon as I can. Im quite comfortable with playing multiple stakes at once so I might put in 1-2 tables of 20nl when I have 7-800 in my roll.
Nov. 15, 2018 | 9:54 a.m.
Around 5k hands in (5tabling) and feeling pretty good about how I am playing atm. Games are very soft and yesterday I had 2+ recs on every table. It is nice to get into playing a lot and I believe it fits my personality to have something to focus on mentaly instead of just drifting around in philosophy-land every single day.
Good news is also that Dekkers is going to coach me, starting friday. This is awesome and I hope it will be what I need to start moving up. Only thing is that it is quite expensive for my roll but this will motivate me to play as much as I possibly can.
Nov. 12, 2018 | 3:02 p.m.
Great journal and very inspirational!
Nov. 11, 2018 | 3:25 p.m.
I did not manage to get any hands in yesterday because I was to tired. Today we´re having some family gathering but hopefully I can stay sharp enough to be able to play in the evening.
My body is slowly adjusting to doing yoga but I have had a couple of days where I have felt horrible from all the stretching but I think it will be very good for me in the long run to keep the practice going.
Also. I have reached out to a couple of coaches and I hope to get some positive responses soon.
Nov. 11, 2018 | 10:06 a.m.
November: I have around 500e in my BR and my goal is to see how many hands I can get in this month. So far I have played maybe 4k hands but hope to pick this up a lot.
- Will not look at results more than once a week at most.
- Start to watch videos at RIO.
- Keep working out 3days/w
- Keep yogachallenge up, day 5/30 today.
- Keep track of all expenses and post them here at the end of month.
Nov. 10, 2018 | 8:18 a.m.
Iam a 31y/o male from Sweden. I have played poker professional for a bunch of years until 2015-16 when my life crashed hard. I had not been taking care of the money I previously earned and had to take a job to sustain myself and my kids. Job turns out to be soulcrushing and I got out of it this spring. Since then I have studied and worked part time at a way better job but from now on I am going to give poker a real chance again.
- I will (hopefully) be working something like 5*24 hour shifts per month wich will cover all my expences in day to day life so I do not have to worry about withdrawing to pay the rent or food etc.
- I have some (smallish) debt that need to be payed of rather sooner than later (accuired when shit hit the fan in 2016.)
- I will start out playing nl10 with 500e and follow at least 50bi rule for moving up.
- I am going to get myself a coach.
When I played poker before I had no real monetary goal, I just wanted to get filthy rich and never worry about money. This did not work out well since I blew everything on travels and lazy stuff like eating out and partying to much. This time around I have a plan:
- Put 20% of monthly winnings to paying of debt, the rest builds the roll until I am playing the limits I want to play.)
- When debtfree, make all pokerwinnings (that is not needed to build BR) go into investing in indexfunds with the plan to create passive income in the future. (More specifics on this later).
Also, this journal is going to be about how I am trying to minimize expenses, build muscle, meditate and a bunch of other stuff hopefully.
Nov. 10, 2018 | 8:14 a.m.
Just to set the tone a little bit i want to share one thing with you;
A couple of years back a good friend of mine told me, while er were on a hike, that when you have walked until you are so tired that you cant take another step, you have only tapped into 50% of your strenght, the rest lies behind mental barriers (or something like that). And its funny, because you can hear people talk for days on end without anything special happening and suddenly someone says something small that really gets stuck with you, and you end up carrying one or two small sentences with you for the rest of you life.
Thats what happened with me out on that hike. And thats the words that has helped me overcome some of the weirdest, scariest, heaviest things you can ever imagine. And it is the words that will keep me going regardless of what lies ahead. (Damn, just broke my last rule within a couple of hours, i cant help myself.)
To be continued.