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HeavyMask

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Time has been my most scarce asset since I started to take this poker
thing serious. When I started on stake with Detox a little over a year
ago I was working five days a week and often felt destroyed when I got
home. In the weekends I had at least one social activity, leaving very
little time to study and grind. I forced myself to study for an hour
after work and then play 3 hours. I barely took time off and when I
tried to do nothing but watch Netflix for an evening, I often felt
stressed because it felt like I was wasting valuable hours on
something that didn’t help me in achieving my goals. As it turns out,
I was making all the basic mistakes that somebody eager to reach high
stakes is bound to make at some point; I was burning myself out.
Essentially I was taking a loan out on future time. Around November I
started to get panic attacks. I would walk in the grocery store and
started hyperventilating. I’d get dizzy in front of my class. In the
end I had to take two full weeks off and it took me till mid-way
through January when I felt like I was able to pick up the pace again

This weekend I went to the mountains with my lady, we stayed in bed most of the time, but I didn't feel any time-wasting, instead, I felt my batteries recharging.
Time off is definitely underrated

it’s very easy to postpone the start for ‘just a couple of minutes’.
And the weird thing is: whenever your starting time is not fixed, it
seems like every night something important pops up right before you’re
supposed to sit down and play. It took me a while before I realized
that if you want to play poker for a living, it’s probably good to be
at least disciplined enough to start on time. Right now there is
rarely a session where I don’t start at exactly the time I was
supposed to start. No excuses.

I have a script that reminds me to sit down.
I can make one for you, where you basically have to sit down and autoclose discord and other things.
We can go a step further and make other activities uncomfortable when you have to play, one thing that I thought about was to display a big black, unmovable box on your screen that only disappear when you start the session

April 20, 2021 | 10:09 a.m.

I admire your diligence, you remind me myself, when I used to post daily updates.

I've look for a global graph, with your results since you start of the blog but you haven't post it.
How are you doing mate?

April 19, 2021 | 9:34 p.m.

That's a huge difference, congratz :)

April 18, 2021 | 6:41 p.m.

I've seen you are doing good too, we'll make it

April 16, 2021 | 7:07 p.m.

A wild freenachos appeared

About 1 month ago, Patrick PMed to help me out of nowhere. It was a very dark moment in my life and I felt alone as never before, but I've always always try my best to climb the deep hole I've always felt to be in.
Joining his CFP was a no brainer and a true blessing

Even if I've always won, my game was and still is pretty basic. I've got fortunate enough to play vs huge whales, waiting for a hand and get paid off.

freenachos trying to fix my game

During these years, I've rinse a repeat this thing, losing the passion to learn and to play in general.
Patrick is gradually restoring it and I'm 100% sure once I've developed my game and climbed a bunch of stakes, my desire to crush life will be hotter than ever.

I've deployed... I guess less than 10% of his strategy, yeah, definitely less, but the results are promising. At least, I've stopped to call river bets only with the nuts.

Maybe he could also bring me some EV back :p, but I don't want to complain about it, I want to avoid selection bias and cherry-pick the stretches where I run "bad"

My habits improved and I'm proud of it

I thought I work hard, but when I see the report, this couldn't be more far from the truth.

I'm inconsistent and I think I should at least double the volume both for studying and playing. I realize that maybe I'm very harsh with myself, but that's how I feel right now... I'm not happy, I could work harder and smarter.
I receive compliments about my work ethic, but to me, it seems that I'm always falling short.

Michelangelo’s great perfect marble David cries out to its observer: “You could be more than you are.”
Jordan B. Peterson

I take 2 days off and see what I can do to improve further

Best wishes

April 16, 2021 | 6:30 p.m.

dat sexy redline

April 4, 2021 | 3:23 p.m.

nuts0nflop
It should be Ipoker, at least, that's what the HM says

April 3, 2021 | 8:39 a.m.

April 2, 2021 | 9:38 p.m.

In ancient Greece, the temple Apolle at Delphi bore several inscriptions, among them this one-nothing in excess-a hint to keep it balanced, if you will

The Greek had the maxim "Know Thyself"

Subbed, best of luck with your life

March 31, 2021 | 10:57 a.m.

Comment | HeavyMask commented on I Cash Out!!!!

I wish you the best mate

March 30, 2021 | 11:29 p.m.

I haven't updated the last week so I need to do it now.
My previous week was dull and I got some annoyances that I had to take care of, that's why a lot of grey in the cells. I don't know whether I've explained it before, but grey cells mean "not tracked" for different reasons. For example, I had some issues, so I didn't studied as I wanted, so that's not entirely my fault and put a big red box in the sheet seemed to be too punishing

This week has already started and you should see very little grey, since I've finished to set up things in order to get started.
I've studied and practiced strategies away from the tables, but I can't wait to test my performance at the tables. Even if those strategies are "simplified" they are extremely complex nonetheless so I need a ton of real practice.
My game will completely change after I've deployed 100% of the strategies, but now, I cannot apply them all correctly. What I'm going to do instead is to change my strategy in one single spot while leaving my other play untouched.

I've started to track down my time using Toggl

This should help with motivation

Good luck at the tables guys

March 30, 2021 | 11:41 a.m.

CatorMan Hi there, sry for the late reply.

First Brokos book is really good, and even if I haven't read his second one, all the guys out there thinks he has done a terrific job

I haven't played a hand since more than 2 weeks now. After I have withdraw the money to return it to my previous backer, I stepped away from the tables waiting for the new CFP to start.

You can read about it below ;)

March 30, 2021 | 11:30 a.m.

Ty a lot mate, it works perfectly

March 22, 2021 | 11:16 p.m.

Post | HeavyMask posted in NLHE: GTO+ and simple toy games

I'm trying to get a grasp of simple toy games, but I'm so clueless that I can't even model properly.
I'm reading first Brokos book and I want to model the situation below but... I'm not able to.

Taking my GTO+ sim here
1. Do I have set up the ranges correctly? When IP has A for example, OOP would only have K or Q?
2. How can I set OOP checking frequency to 100% to see different changes in equilibrium?

To better model real poker situations, we're going to play the same game again, but this time both players will have identical ranges. Each player antes $1 and is dealt a single card from a three-card deck consisting of one A, one K, and one Q, but this time either player could be dealt any card. The only information a player has about his opponent is that the card in his hand can’t be in his opponent's hand. In other words, if Opal has an A, then she knows that Ivan's range is {K,Q}, and if Ivan has a Q, he knows that Opal's range is {A,K}.

The objective of the game is simply to hold the higher card at showdown, with an A being the highest card and a Q the lowest. There are no community cards and no draws, just a single round of betting followed by a showdown.

We'll start by analyzing this game with only a half-street of betting. That is, the out-of-position player (Opal) is forced to check, while the in-position player (Ivan) may either bet $1 or check. There's no raising allowed, so if Ivan bets, Opal may only call or fold.

March 22, 2021 | 10:50 a.m.

Bad week but I've improved something anyway

There's a lot of red (failed goals) out there, most of them are poker-related. I haven't played for about 2 weeks now and I really go back to the tables asap. I thought the CFP deal would start sooner but it hasn't started yet, so I have to wait and realize in order to build a project, like my coach is doing, requires time. So I'm going to wait, patiently.

I didn't stick to my poker habits because I've scheduled to study/work on my mental game only. I found it quite annoying and not a top priority, that's why I wasn't interested in it. IMO, the mental game should be done as a secondary job. My mind realized that I was focusing on the 20% of the Pareto Principle and blocked me.
I have to focus on meaningful actions.

I didn't stick to my poker habits because I've scheduled to study/work on my mental game only. I found it quite annoying and not a top priority, that's why I wasn't interested in it. IMO, the mental game should be done as a secondary job. My mind realized that I was focusing on the 20% of the Pareto Principle and blocked me.
I have to focus on meaningful actions.

The next week I will finish Play Optimal Poker by Andrew Brokos, ask a lot of questions and get all the answers I need. This strategic study along with playing with solvers will make things more interesting and useful in the long run.

Some comments about my goals:
- I've consistently failed the goal on the left column because I need a trigger for it, I just forgot to do that.
- Always running the global script wasn't a problem, until I was hoping to jump into the Discord group to see some updates about the CFP deal. This week I will be checking it in specific timeframes and focus on other things while I'm waiting.
- I'm proud of myself for powering off all my electronic stuff before 2AM

That's it for now, gl at the tables

March 21, 2021 | 9:19 p.m.

I'm really glad you find something in me that inspired you and I'm really grateful that you spent your time reading it whole.

I'm just tired of people who don't recognize their luck and live their lives at level 'very easy'. I don't feel any bitterness toward people who realize they were lucky, like you, instead, I feel a lot of empathy.

Again, ty very much for your time.
I wish you the best

March 17, 2021 | 11 p.m.

Resting is the right word :)

March 17, 2021 | 11:26 a.m.

It seems you are printing money, can't wait to see the graph at the end of the month

March 16, 2021 | 10:35 p.m.

Have you tried other sites where you can do 5 or more tables?
It is confusing to mix sites but I'm sure you can do more... it is just a matter of keep trying.
When I play 4 tables I have plenty of time between decisions, you should have it as well. Maybe you try to get fancy or overcomplicate things?

March 16, 2021 | 4:45 p.m.

Hey there, ty for your interested.
We haven't started yet unfortunately... we should begin this week but nothing set in stone. I hope to start asap obv and when I do I will update here

March 16, 2021 | 4:42 p.m.

What are your thoughts about improving this? I guess just experience and me getting better haha? How many tables do you generally play?

Do you mix zoom and reg tables? In that case, I find it confusing as well, if you don't... I don't have any advice besides it's just a matter of practice imo, you don't have those limitations. You just get used to...yet
I play only on PS and I play only 4 tables but I had played 9 at the same time, without any problem

March 15, 2021 | 10:10 p.m.

I realise my volume is borderline pathetic and talking about feeling burnt out whilst playing 1k hands a day might tilt some people

You can be burned out for multiple reasons and volume isn't a reliable indicator. In fact, you mentioned that you can't do more than 4 reg tables, this highlights and issue with focus, not burn out imo.
You are burned out if you don't feel play your average volume

March 15, 2021 | 9:21 p.m.

Comment | HeavyMask commented on shift up a gear

Subbed, best of luck mate

March 15, 2021 | 6:59 p.m.

I'm going to change the format of this blog, giving up daily updates and focusing more on something meaningful. From now on, the posts updates will be weekly.

I'm pretty happy to see a lot of green in the last week. The red boxes are just a good indicator that highlights something isn't working as it should. Nevermind, I will adjust accordingly.
In the last row, you can see the current week goals

March 15, 2021 | 6:58 p.m.

You will double your winrate ;)

March 15, 2021 | 6:44 p.m.

Don't draw conclusions on a very small sample, it's just too dangerous.
Also be aware that -8 BIs is likely to happen on even 2k hands.
Don't worry, keep improving and move on

March 13, 2021 | 11:54 a.m.

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March 13, 2021 | 9:56 a.m.

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March 12, 2021 | 9:25 a.m.

May I ask you if you feel somewhat influenced by your daily results?
Because I was and I've build an easy workaround for that.
Basically I used a custom report that tells me what level I should be playing.
In my case that avoided some stress because there's no way I can know my results (unless I really want to) and at the same time I can manage my BR properly because I know when it's the time to move down, if I need to

March 11, 2021 | 9:11 p.m.

Great update, I wish you the best in your journey ;)

Tell me about your schedule, how much time do you spend on poker in general?
Also, you said it's a small stable, but when you look at your site, there are many photos of the players. Maybe it's just all the players they have and had...

March 11, 2021 | 8:55 p.m.

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